High Narcissism (High Self-Esteem), Solipsism and Narcissistic Personality Disorder: Differential Diagnosis

Trash: NPD is sort of like Attention Deficit Disorder. The terminology is getting tossed around a great deal but I think a vast, vast number of people would fit its criteria.

No, Narcissistic Personality Disorder or NPD has very precise criteria, but clinicians do screw it up. I really doubt if true NPD is overdiagnosed. It is not an extremely common disorder. However, much has been written about how we are becoming more narcissistic as a society. That may be true, but that doesn’t mean we are in an NPD epidemic.

My last therapist told me I was a narcissist – not NPD but narcissistic traits. This took me aback because I am not real fond of these types. They really rub me the wrong way and mostly they are just too much. I have one in my family and he has been known on many occasions to not be a very unpleasant person. There is a real ugly and nasty side to this disorder when it gets bad. They truly do not care about you, are not interested in you at all, and they can be very mean and cruel. Not that they care about that either. Of course they are also utterly clueless.

My best therapist has told me that I am not a narcissist. He said I am self-centered, but that’s more of a case of being all wrapped up in my own stuff to think about others much rather than being selfish. It’s related to my OCD and a lot of OCD’ers are pretty much all wrapped up in their own stuff. This is often confused with narcissism, but it’s not the same thing. It’s more like solipsism. I admit I am pretty solipsistic. It’s not that I don’t care about others. I do, but I am so wrapped up in myself all the time that I do not have a lot of energy left over for others.

He also told me that I have high self esteem. This could also be called high narcissism if you believe that narcissism = self-esteem. In that case, low narcissism would be low self-esteem. However, high narcissism in the sense of high self esteem, though it may seem a bit much, and such folks are often conceited, vain and egotistical, is considered healthy in that generally empathy is fairly well preserved. It is typically considered to be a sign of good mental health. Personally, I think everyone should have high narcissism or high self esteem. Why not? What’s wrong with everyone thinking they are great? How is that bad?

The problem is that people keep going beyond high narcissism all the way into pathological narcissism or NPD. The problem here is that now self esteem has gone so high that as it gets higher and higher, one cares less and less about and has less and less empathy for others. To put it briefly, at some point, the more you love yourself, the less you love others. I am not sure why that is, but perhaps there is only so much love available in a human.

Also at some point, self esteem gets so high that you feel better than or superior to others. This tends to coincide with low empathy. I don’t claim to fully understand narcissism as it is an extremely complex subject. I have been studying it deeply for over a decade now, and it still doesn’t really make complete sense to me, but that’s typical of a lot of mental issues. I’ve also been studying sociopaths for most of my life, and they still don’t make sense to me. I can’t for the life of me see how anyone could be like that. To me they don’t make sense.

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“The Story of an Omega,” by Anonymous

I must say, this is one of the saddest stories I have ever read. It’s literally heartbreaking. I also think this fellow is a fine writer. And that’s a compliment coming from me because I don’t like most writers. You can be assured that if I tell you you are a good writer, you are definitely good. He’s such a good writer that this heartbreaking story is actually beautiful. As we all know, some of the best literature ever written is terribly sad. The saddest story on Earth can also be beautiful in the hands of a literary master. There is a cold beauty in most things on Earth, even the saddest and ugliest things, if the touch of great art is applied to them.

There are some problems with the prose below, in particular switching back and forth between 1st and 2nd person, but it’s nothing a good editor couldn’t fix up. It did require a bit of an edit but more from grammar, punctuation and spelling and a bit for awkward phraseology. But I didn’t change the voice. As you might guess when reading this, the author is an Indian-American man.

The Story of an Omega

by Anonymous

Intro

Below is a timeline of my life as an Incel. This is going to be a long and depressing read. However, I want to make it clear to anyone that reads this – don’t be so quick to compare yourself to me. Some guys who are only 5’8 claim that their shortness in statue causes them to be Forever Alone (FA). I am only 5’4, and my height is probably only my seventh biggest problem. Even while I’m not the shortest guy ever at 5’4, my hunchback makes me appear 5’0.

I’m short for even a short guy, and yet I was not until I was in my 30’s before I realized my height was even a problem. Mainly that was due to the fact I was focusing on my bigger problems such as my limp, hunchback, clawed hands, ugly face, speech impediment and otherwise weird voice, and learning disabilities. Then after factoring in my height, you can also consider my shattered confidence, social awkwardness, poor sense of humor, very bad teeth and that I am now overweight. Most guys would struggle to get a girl with only two or three of those problems. It’s hard to believe that guy could only be 5’4 and walk with a limp and would be only scratching the surface of his problems.

Recently I have been trying to calculate a rate of girls that would be willing to date me. Perhaps after seeing my face, only 1/20 girls would date me. Of those girls, only 1/40 would date me because of my height. Then after factoring in the deformity of my body, maybe only 1/50 of the remaining girls would date me. Of those, maybe only 1/30 would date me because of my personality. And of that, maybe only 1/10 would date me because of other reasons such as my voice or my teeth.

It is possible that some girls who could look past my height would also look past my deformities, but if not, taking all this into account would mean only .8 of every million girls would date me. That means in an entire country of about 75 million women who are between the ages of 18-65, there would be only about 60 girls that would date me.

Consider how bad that is. I have an unattractive friend. I would say 85% of girls would never date him. If we both decided to get girlfriends and I could go after any girl in the country and he could only go after girls from our small commuter college, he would still be 25X more likely to get a girl than I would. And this isn’t a popular guy at all.

Think about it another way. Let’s say that because of my face, I fall in the bottom 10% of male attractiveness. Because of my height, I am in the bottom 3%. Because of the disability, I am in the bottom 5%. Based on personality issues, I am in the bottom 15%. Finally because of other matters, I am in the bottom 20%. Put it all together, and I am in the bottom .0004%. That means that if you paired me up against another guy and asked the average girl which guy was more attractive, I would lose 220,500 times in a row. After winning one match, I would lose another 220,500.

This is what life is like for this kind of person…

3rd Grade: Problem Free and Already Left Out

This is where it starts. In third grade, before you have any real problems, you suddenly find yourself paying attention to girls. You notice the popular kids have girls approaching them on behalf of other girls. A lot of “he said, she said” games are played. You can’t help but notice you seem to be left out of these games. No big deal, a lot of guys are. No need to worry. Although you do feel a little jealous.

4th–6th Grade: The Beginnings of Frustration

The “he said, she said” games have stopped, and now the popular kids are hanging out with the girls they like. You watch in jealousy as they share their first kisses. Eventually more guys start getting girlfriends. By sixth grade, it seems like half of guys have girlfriends and half don’t. You are disappointed at being in the bottom half. You secretly wonder what it feels like to kiss a pretty girl, and hope you won’t have to wait too long. But you are socially awkward and don’t know how to make the first move. And the girls don’t care to pursue you either.

7th Grade: Things Become Clear

This is when lines start to be drawn and the losers exposed. By seventh grade, 80% of guys have girlfriends. Only the bottom 20% don’t. Even though you want a girlfriend, you keep hoping for at least an above average-looking girl for validation purposes. At this point, you are clueless about how overly-inflated your ego is. Although any thought of being a popular kid has clearly gone down the drain. You don’t give up yet on the pretty girls, but you are starting to realize the competition is fierce. You’re shorter than everyone, have a weird voice, an unattractive face, and a shy and awkward personality. But you keep hoping somehow you will get lucky.

8th–9th Grade: The Onset of Physical Deformity

By 8th grade, the percentage of guys without girlfriends has fallen to about 5%. That’s when something amazing happens, a girl actually says hello to you. Because you never get any female attention, you blow it out of proportion. Four years after guys and girls start dating, you think you are finally going to get a girlfriend. One of the last in your grades to do so. But it turns out she doesn’t like you either! When you look back at that time now, you can’t believe you had only endured about 1/5 of the time you would continue to endure not having a girlfriend.

Only after this disappointment does life deliver another blow. While all the other boys experiences manly growth spurts, not only do you stay the same in height, but you also develop a hunchback and a limp. In fact, everyone got taller, but you appear to have gotten shorter. This opens a new world of rejection. Instead of getting a girlfriend, you start to get bullied.

For Valentine’s Day you get a card from a ‘secret admirer’. As you get your hopes up, the class bursts out in laughter, and you realize it is from a group of guys playing a joke. Even your female teacher has slight smirk on her face. As girls walk by, the bullies announce to them that “he has a crush on you”. The shrieks and looks of horror always get a big chuckle. You can’t get a girl to give you the time of the day. Other female teachers who were previously nice to you act annoyed every time you ask a question or try to talk to them. Every day you are told you are a gimp who no girl likes.

Sharing kisses are a thing of the past. While your desire for just one small peck on the lips goes unmet, couples are making out and fondling body parts. Your ego plummets knowing you still haven’t kissed a girl while listening to the majority of other guys talking about fondling girls’ breasts.

10th–12th Grade: Last Place

Now everybody has a girlfriend. Everyone but you. One by one, all your friends get girlfriends as well. While guys and girls go through periods of being in relationships and being single, you are the only one who has never had a girlfriend. There are a few girls left that you consider asking out, but all the guys would make fun of you if you dated them. You decide to endure. You will soon go to college and have a fresh start. You will certainly meet an acceptable girl there, so there is no reason to be the only guy who asks out the very, very few girls who no other guy will date. You can’t be that bad.

You have no idea how over your head you really are. It will only be years later when you realize even those girls would have just said no as well. Not only do you graduate as the only virgin in your grade, you still haven’t kissed a girl. And everyone knows it. Still, you remember having high hopes that high school was a fluke and college will be different.

It certainly doesn’t appear that it is going to be any different that summer. While working at McDonald’s one day, a couple of co-workers start asking if the others have had sex with their girlfriends. Of course they all have. The one girl in the room says she can’t even talk about sex with you in the room.

Early College: Failing at School

Welcome to the big leagues. Having sex isn’t a rumor anymore, it is happening left and right. You will never forget the day you see a guy and girl step out of the shower together. You felt like a 10 year old in the presence of sexual beasts. Here you are, still looking for your first kiss, and two wet, towel-covered bodies stumble out of the stall with content smiles on their faces. On another night, you walk aimlessly around the campus all night long as your roommate and all your neighbors have fun with their girlfriends. All around you are couples.

You continue to fail miserably with the opposite sex. Day after day, you search for that special girl, but she is nowhere to be found. Not in the dorms, the café, any of the classrooms, the library, or the student union. Nowhere off campus either. You get rejected by every girl you approach. There are even girls who flee the scene when you try approaching them. Without saying anything, they literally pack their belongings and hurry away. For every 500 girls that seem to be immediately repulsed by you, there may be 1-2 who act nice because they feel sorry for you. Often this leads to confusion where you think they like you. When they find out how you feel about them, they make every attempt to avoid you.

It doesn’t matter who you find yourself approaching, they aren’t interested. At first you make the mistake of pursuing the pretty girls again, thinking that like a fairy tale, things will be different here. No such luck. For the second time, you go through the proceedings: rejection from hot girls, then pretty ones, then above average, then average, then below average. Soon it’s just you and the very unattractive ones all over again.

Making it even worse are the Chads. The kind of attention they get is mind-boggling. You even see some lucky Chads eating or studying with several girls. The lucky SOB has an entire group of girls all to himself, while you can’t get a single one to even give you the time of the day. As you are eating alone, you can’t stop staring at the guy two tables down laughing it up with three cute girls. It’s as if you worship and despise him at the same exact time.

While working at the gas station one day, you hit a new low. The door opens and a total stud walks in. Great looking face with a bodybuilder’s profile. You watch him confidentially walk up to your female co-worker whose entire body starts trembling. You can tell how bad she wants to talk to him if only she still had her voice. That is when an older woman walks in. She takes a few steps towards the back of the store, but upon seeing him, immediately changes her direction and approaches him from behind.

Following that, her daughter walks in. As her eyes dart immediately to the guy, she trips over her own feet and falls flat on her face! She picks herself up and skips over to join her mother standing right behind the guy. Each of them tries to flirt with him, each blurt of admiration becoming more desperate than the one before. You try to hold back tears watching it all.

When they find out they aren’t being successful, they start picking on you, hoping it will make them look cool. The slight smile on the guy’s face encourages them to continue. It doesn’t end there. Because you am trying to appeal to both the guy and the girls, you start pretending to laugh at their jokes. So you have a total Chad instigating three girls to take shots at you while you start to take shots at yourself. It was like we all came under his spell.

You join a local community group. You can’t help but think it’s your imagination that all the older, married women seem to despise you from the minute you meet them. Instead of being happy to see you, they look upset every time you stroll in the room. Nowadays, you can’t help but think that even back then, they already knew the struggles you were having and would continue to have with women.

Even at a relatively young age and from a relatively short time of sizing you up, they have your life’s destiny all figured out. Looking back, you wish you could have judged the situation as clearly as they saw it. Instead you will continue to go through years of anger, resentment, and confusion. Only to end up exactly where they said you would 15 years ago.

But we’ll get to that.

Mid-College: The Odd Man Out Again

But long before that, by some stroke of luck, there are 12 single guys in this group and 16 single girls. A few of the girls are extremely pretty. Most are above average. A few are unattractive. One is exactly like you – not attractive, learning disabled, not funny, socially awkward, kind of bitter, although not deformed.

The girls never pay you any attention. Like the older women, you get dirty looks from them. If you pass by them, they literally look right through you. And to make matters worse, most of the guys are quite nice looking. One in particular would qualify as the Alpha of any group. Every time you hang out with him, he gets the attention of countless girls. Things happen to him that would never happen to you, such as female cashiers giving him discounts on merchandise.

There is only one girl in your entire life you somehow were lucky enough to get stuck in the Friendzone with. For years, you have been unsuccessfully trying to appeal to her. One day when you are with him, you run into her. You can tell she is instantly attracted to him. The five minute conversation that follows is really a conversation between him and her. You try to protect the ground you’ve built with this girl and compete for her attention. But at this point, every word you say to her goes in one ear and out the other. That five minute conversation was all it took for him to get a Facebook friend request from her later that day with a flirty message and a dinner invitation. Eventually he becomes the first guy among your group to get married. And when he does, he marries a blond goddess.

While he is clearly the crème de la crop, the other guys have it pretty good as well. Every time you are out in public, you have to watch somebody else getting female attention. At a wedding, you sit next to the second most desirable guy. Dozens of females from married moms to young teens walk by taking quick glances at him and smiling. The waitress tells him he’s adorable. Another one serves the cake and gives him a big, flirty smile, then walks away, forgetting to serve you any. This is the wedding where you also find out he’s dating the girl you like.

Even the second least desirable guy from the beginning of this story gets attention you couldn’t even dream of. At a restaurant one time you see a cute girl giggling over him while her friends playfully tease her about him. Soon another one of the guys gets married, then another, and another, and so on. The girls that they marry are heart-melting beautiful as well. It’s like experiencing your younger years all over again, when you watched guy after guy getting girlfriends.

Your unattractive friend marries a girl from out of state. She quickly becomes friends with everyone. By the time of their wedding, you have lost touch with him. When he introduces you to her, the girl barely looks at you. She barely acknowledges any of your questions/comments. Later on, you try to connect with her on Facebook, like all the other guys do. You are the only one she rejects. Watching 12 straight guys get married before you is embarrassing enough.

But it’s what happens next that wrecks you. There seems to be an emphasis on only starting relationships with people in that group. So by the time it is just you and four girls left, maybe there is still hope, right? Wrong. The first girl also marries someone from out-of-state. She just can’t bring herself to like you. The second moves away and ultimately gets married. You start to panic as you watch the amount of available girls dwindle down from 16 to only two. As you build up the nerve to attempt to court the more desirable of the two, a new guy comes out of nowhere and begins a relationship with her. The fact that you knew her for years and he only just met her doesn’t matter. He’s the one she wants.

Finally, it’s just you and the one exactly like you that is left. She was the only one you and every other guy wasn’t interested in. As someone who always wanted a pretty girl, this is not what you were hoping for, in fact the least attractive girls in high school would have blown her away. Physically, she is as plain as a girl could be. Dry, thin hair with no elasticity. Pale acne skin. Poor asymmetry. Very short at 4’8 and the body of a 10 year old boy.

When thinking she could be the one, it made you feel attracted to just about every other girl out there. Any girl of any age with any curves at all becomes a sex symbol to you. Personality-wise, she was cold, judgmental, and cynical. She was exactly the type of girl you weren’t interested in, but it was starting to seem she was your only chance. Wrong again. She doesn’t like you either!

For a while you watch in angry confusion as she seems more content being alone than being with you. Then you remember how little you have going for you. After all, she may be in the bottom 1%, but even in that very low class, she still has thousands of guys in our hometown alone to choose from before you. Actually even more than that, considering guys are constantly down-dating. She is a 2/10 who will likely score a 3/10. You are a bottom of the barrel 1/10 who can’t go any lower. Then there is always the option of her dating long-distance. In other words, even with her, you never stood a chance. And her time will come soon enough. It’s official, rejected by another 16 girls.

Adding insult to injury, the older women could seem to care less that you were having a hard time. In fact, they even seem amused by it. You can’t tell you how many “Sucks to be you” looks you received from them.

But it doesn’t end there. When you met these women, their daughters were merely toddlers. As time progressed, they became the first girls you could ever talk to in your entire life. Of course it goes without saying that you never remotely considered anything sexual to do with them at that age.

But as time goes on, they enter their teens and start becoming ‘guy-conscious’. That is when they stop talking to you. Several of them even become cute. One of them even develops into a girl that is downright gorgeous. She matures so quickly that you constantly must remind yourself how young she still is. Being that she is still in her teens, you fight the temptation to look at her. One day, maybe out of frustration and loneliness, curiosity kills the cat, and you can’t help but wander over to her Facebook profile for a quick glance.

You are shocked to see that she is friends with everyone but you. As you go to another young girl’s profile, you see the same thing. You keep going and realize they are all friends with everyone but you. It’s pretty clear that now that even they consider you to be a loser. First it was the moms, then the girls your age, and now the daughters. Rejected by three straight generations of females.

Late College: Rejected by Everyone!

Outside of the group, you continue to get rejected left and right. In pure panic, you start asking out anybody and everybody. But every direction you turn, it’s just more rejection. Ethnic girls aren’t interested. Goth girls, emo girls, and tomboys aren’t interested. Older women and single moms aren’t interested. You get rejected by tall and short girls, funny and boring girls, smart and dumb girls, classy and trashy girls, city and country girls, and outgoing and quiet girls.

As other guys are dating hot young girls, you are visiting gas stations to get rejected by 40-year old-Indian women. Fat, ugly girls with bad personalities reject you. You would think handicapped girls would be willing to give you a try. But you get shot down by them as well! Each rejection causes deeper depression and desperation, which only causes you to act even stranger around the opposite sex. You scoff at the memory of not pursuing those unattractive girls from high school. Except when you look them up on Facebook, their 3/10 boyfriends are still taller, stronger, better looking, and more successful than you are.

You still remember the day you gave up on White girls and turned your attention to Indian girls. Another unattractive friend tells you he had an Indian girl begging to sleep with him. This is perfect! While most White guys don’t care about them, you have always considered them to be cute. And with you forgetting the White girls, they become even more attractive. Another nice thing that since they are the race that remains the most separated from American culture, you can almost see pursuing them as leaving this sick, twisted world behind and moving into a whole new world.

Indian women who are rich are like goddesses to you. When you see a good-looking, older, wealthy Indian woman, you go crazy for her. In your city, the wealthiest couple is an Indian couple whom one of the local colleges is named after.

You start to have fantasies of being with her which soon spiral out of control. Getting her would be the ultimate revenge. The couple own the biggest house in the city. A mansion buried deep in the woods. From Google Maps, you can see a swimming pool out back. The greatest thing ever would be if she invited you and a couple of her friends over one day while her husband was away on business. The five of us would spend a lazy Saturday afternoon playing with each other in the pool. Why bother going out on a date with some girl when you are hanging out at a mansion with four beautiful Indian women.

Of course the fantasy never comes true. Instead, every Middle Eastern girl you approach shoots you down as well. One day you spend the entire day driving from gas station to gas station only to get rejected by 47 straight Indian women and drive home empty-handed. You give up on Indian girls as well.

The Latina girls are next. Followed by the Black girls. And then finally the Asians.

In a world that is becoming more and more divided, it seems like the only thing they all agree on is that you are not the guy for them.

You finally graduate college at the age of 28. All your friends and companions are married. Many of them are raising families. Like an elementary school student, you still have not even kissed a girl. In fact, you’re still hoping to hold hands with one. Hell, you wouldn’t even mind playing the “he said, she said” games of 3rd grade at this point.

But even that is out of your league.

Your First Job: Despised Co-Worker

As you graduate college and get your first job, you discover it will continue to be a re-experience of things you’ve already been through. It seems like everything you do either upsets or annoys some girl. They regard you as stupid, lazy, ugly, and dishonest even though you don’t do anything differently than the rest of the guys. You even get blamed for other people’s mistakes. Girls constantly invite the whole department to eat lunch with them, but they keep “forgetting” to invite you. You feel like the biggest pile of trash.

Out of confusion and denial, you start bending over backwards for the girls who just rejected you. You offer to do work for them and stay late while they go home early. You don’t even get a thank you. You shower one girl with gifts, bringing in lunches for her, giving her compliment after compliment, to no avail. You finally realize how pathetic you are the day you win a sporting polo shirt in a company contest. You tell the girl you never plan on wearing it, so you offer it to her.; But upon taking it, she gives it to her boyfriend. Without realizing it, you just gave your crush’s Chad boyfriend a free shirt.

One girl there is your age. She is also a part-time novelist who churns out romance novels on a regular basis. She is your age, not very good looking, a helpless romantic, and unhappily single. Could you be the man for her? No, but the chubby, bald 50-year-old guy who is in a lower position than you can. As they start dating, you swear you could go insane.

On top of that, word gets around, and soon enough, even girls that work in different buildings that have never met you regard you as a loser and make jokes about you.

Giving Up: Rock Bottom

Now there is only one place left to turn…the ghetto. So you spend entire days into the wee hours of the morning aimlessly driving down the ghetto streets looking for a girl. Still, you are determined not to visit a prostitute. You think a regular ghetto girl would do the job just fine. After all, you have been rejected by everyone else. There’s only one problem. The ghetto girls know you have already been rejected by everyone else. And they don’t want middle-class rejection; that is almost an insult to them.

For the first time, you begin to ponder just how bad it is. You have absolutely zero sexual market value. Not only is there not a single redeeming quality about you, you come in last place in every category. You aren’t an OK looking guy with a short, weak body. Or a bad-looking guy with just an OK body. You are last place in face, last place in height, last place in body, last place in personality, last place in intelligence, last place, last place, last place! As irresistible as girls are to you, you are equally repulsive to them. There are four billion girls on this planet, and you mean diddly squat to every single last one of them.

You start developing physical and mental health issues. You get so depressed from always going to bed alone that you can barely sleep. At the same time, you get angry, bitter, paranoid, obsessive, and delusional. For a short period of time, you actually fool yourself into believing that you are so desired by the opposite sex that their rejection is caused by a fear of them getting hurt by you. You fool yourself into thinking every girl has the hots for you and is so intimidated that they immediately keep their distance.

That changes one day when you are walking through the grocery store. You see a teenage boy walking around with his cute, already-busty girlfriend and her mom. They are walking in your direction. You are so desperate that it doesn’t matter that she is 15 years younger than you. You can’t help but wish she was your girlfriend. At about 20 feet in the distance, it happens. Right in the middle of the grocery store, the young boy buries his face in the girl’s breasts and motorboats her. The girl lets out a little yelp followed by laughter. Even her mom smiles at the sight of it. The first thing that happens is that you jump 10 feet backwards in shock.

Then you stand there frozen as tears come to your eyes. Watching a teenage boy motorboat a girl in public while you have never touched one nearly makes you break down crying. As they continue to walk past you, you have to say something. You want to ask the boy how he pulled that off. You want to beg the girl to let you do it to her too. You want to ask the mom if she really smiled when he did it. But all you can do as they walk past is let out a “Hhhhmmmppphhh”. All three of them look at you. The girl looks at you with a mix of amusement and disdain. The boy smiles smugly. The mom looks at you with disgust. They can all see the sexual frustration in your eyes.

“Get lost, weirdo,” the mom says.

The three of them snicker and keep walking. It finally hits you. Girls aren’t intimidated by you, they can take one look at you and instantly tell that you, a grown man, have less sexual experience than an average 12-year-old. They can tell how frustrated and desperate you feel. They can tell that you have been rejected again and again and again and again. They can tell that at every stage of your life, girls have never wanted you. They know that years of hopelessness will continue to fly on by.

Worst of all, they can tell that you feel like a mouse. As a grown man jealously watching a young boy bury his face in a girls breasts while being twice his age, you’ve never gotten a girl to touch you anywhere for any amount of time. At that minute, denial comes crashing down, and it becomes crystal clear to all four people standing there think that you are a helpless loser. And the two girls hate you with a passion for it.

By now, you can be assured it is a hopeless situation. But what happens next causes you to hit rock bottom.

First, you visit an Asian massage parlor and get denied service. The two Asian girls keep saying over and over, “No, no, you leave. You leave, no.” You you walk back to your car, open the door, get inside and scream.

You drive home and take another detour through the ghetto. A busty, blond girl catches your eye. You drive past her several times. From the way she is walking around, she must be a hooker. But at this point, you don’t care. She sits down at a bus stop. You park your car around the corner and sit down next to her.

She mutters something under her breath.

“Were you talking to me?”

“No, I am on the phone with someone”.

But the phone looks like it’s off. She gets up and keeps walking down the street. She “hangs up” after only 15 steps. You’re too embarrassed to follow.

The next night you see the same girl. As you drive past once, she quickly looks away; it’s enough to embarrass you to keep driving for a second. You drive past a second time, but once again she pretends to get a phone call. Two minutes later, you drive by a third time. You see her from a distance. You see her point at something. You look, but there’s nothing there, and when you look back, you can’t find her. Only after a safe distance, do you see her in your review mirror emerging from behind a couple of trash cans. How the hell does this girl keep escaping you? Ten minutes later she sees you about to drive past a fourth time. She quickly turns a corner and disappears into thin air.

When you see her the next night, she looks stunning, wearing a skintight yellow dress exposing an amazing amount of cleavage. You have to talk to her! First drive by, she grabs the arm of somebody walking right in front of her and pretends to be walking with him. The minute you are out of sight, she lets go and walks away from him. In the next drive-by, you position yourself just right so that she has to talk to you. You talk for about a minute, and she even thanks you when complimenting her dress. Not only that, but she even fixes her top right in front of you and smiles.

You ask her if she would like a ride. She says she has to meet a friend real quick but to wait here and she would be back in about 20 minutes.

“OK, great!” The previous couple of nights must have been some kind of misunderstanding. She is sure nice to you now – even tracing her cleavage with her fingers! “She was probably just playing hard to get,” you laugh.

You always said you never wanted a hooker. But at this point, what options do you have? Besides, that girl is great looking. The first thing you are going to do is motorboat her like the boy in the store. You can’t wait to have your mouth between those soft-looking, perfectly rounded breasts. After 20 minutes, she has not returned. After another 20 minutes, you are fighting the feeling of disappointment. After another 20 minutes, you are down in the dumps. Finally after an hour and a half, you give up. She played you for a fool!

The next night is when it all falls apart.

First drive by:

As you approach, she raises her arm, “Taxi!” Of course there is no taxi.

The second time works better. You stop her and ask why she never came back.

“Well, my friend needed me.”

“No problem, at least you’re here now.”

“Well, I need to walk to the store and get groceries.”

“Let me give you a lift then.”

“No, I need the exercise.”

“What are you talking about? You look amazing. Then can I at least come with you; I’ll pay for your groceries.”

“No, that’s OK.”

“Can I meet you after you shop?”

“I don’t feel like staying up too late.”

“Well, maybe you can give me your number and I can call you.”

“My phone broke, sorry.”

“Look, what do I have to do? You keep blowing me off.”

“Well, maybe there is a reason,” she replies hastily.

And that is the comment that ends it.

You drive away in defeat. Of course she never ends up going to the store. You have finally found your place in the male hierarchy. Even with money, girls still don’t want you.

That is when you realize you will never have sex.

Eventually you get to the point where you can’t even fantasize about having sex anymore. You used to jerk off to the thought of having sex with a pretty girl. Now the only thing that arouses you is the fantasy of Muscle-man Chad engaging in a steamy mother-daughter threesome or Ghetto Chad standing proud in a sea of ghetto Black and White girls. You even get aroused at the thought of the busty, blond hooker using every trick in the book to deflect your every pickup attempt.

And that is where you stand.

Poor mental health; poor physical health. Hated and despised by everyone. Wanted by no one. It doesn’t matter what age, race, personality type, attractiveness level, part of the world, intelligence level, or social status the girl is. If you are bottom .0004%, she can do better. Even girls in the bottom .0004% themselves, if there are any, will wait in line for someone better. A girl would rather be fifth in line than be with you. If given the choice, she would rather be the fourth or fifth wheel in an all-girl, one-guy orgy than give you the time of the day.

You become so awkward that all you can do is longingly stare at girls as you walk by them hoping one of them will talk to you. But this only propels them away even faster. Every girl you see is a girl you can’t have. You can’t even tell how old girls are anymore. You can’t tell if a girl is two years younger than you or 15 years younger. You desperately seek attention, flitting from fat 50-year-old women to young teenage girls. But you are invisible to everyone.

This is the life of a loser.

Your teens were difficult. Your 20’s were a nightmare. Your 30’s are turning into Hell on earth.

And you realize you are only halfway done.

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Did Rapist Maniac Donald Trump Murder a 12 Year Old Girl?

Note that the previous story about Trump raping two girls aged 12 and 13 year old, Trump suggested to Girl X that the other girl, Maria, had been murdered, apparently by Trump or Epstein or both. Girl X stated that 12 year old Maria was her friend and she had also been raped by both Trump and Epstein. However, at one point, Maria disappeared and Girl X never saw her again. It was after Maria’s disappearance that Trump threatened Girl X that she “would end up like Maria” (Disappeared? Murdered?) if she talked.

I do not believe that Maria has been heard from since. That doesn’t mean she’s dead, but it’s rather creepy.

We already know that Trump is a rapist maniac who rapes 12 and 13 year old girls. Raping the 12 year old girl is also getting awful close to child molestation.

The question then is:

Is rapist maniac Donald Trump also a child molester and child killer?

Please weigh in. Is rapist Donald Trump a child molester too? Is rapist Donald Trump a child killer too? Please let us know how you feel. Thanks.

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Rapist Maniac Donald Trump Raped a 13 Year Old Girl and a 12 Year Old Girl and Threatened to Murder Both Girls and Their Families If They Talked

Here is the full story that I discussed earlier. The amazing thing about this case is that this is a rape case that has two witnesses who both testified that they witnessed the rapes and threats. Witnesses are quite rare in rape cases and having two witnesses in  a rape case is even more rare. The fact that there were two witnesses to this case adds considerable weight to the charges. The case was dropped after the victim said she received many threats after filing the lawsuit. Who threatened her? Trump? Trump’s goons?

The woman has a name and photos of her when she was 13 and now when she is 32 are available. Articles were published on the Net with interviews of her and photographs around the time she dropped the suit. You can go look them up on the Net if you wish. This isn’t fake news. It’s a real story about real people and a real lawsuit.

I do not believe she dropped the suit due to threats, though I am sure she was threatened. I believe that he paid her off just like he paid off all of those other women who came forward accusing him of sex attacks. Epstein also reportedly paid off many underage girls who accused him of having sex with them. However, one 14 year old girl apparently would not be bought off and she pressed charges against him. Epstein got one year at a country club federal prison. He was even allowed to leave every day to go to work!

One of the two women added as witnesses in the child rape lawsuit against Donald Trump claims the Republican presidential nominee and a friend also sexually assaulted and brutalized a 12-year-old girl in addition to the plaintiff in the case.

Raw Story reports two women, identified as “Joan Doe” and “Tiffany Doe,” have been added as witnesses to a revived lawsuit in which a woman, “Jane Doe,” alleges Trump viciously raped her in 1994 when she was 13 years old. The suit, which was originally dismissed by a Los Angeles judge earlier this year — reportedly because the plaintiff filed the wrong form — claims that Trump attacked “Jane Doe” at a series of Manhattan orgies organized by billionaire Jeffrey Epstein. The lawsuit alleges Trump and Epstein lured her and other girls to Epstein’s mansion with promises of modeling careers, but instead brutally attacked the plaintiff. Trump allegedly tied the child to a bed before raping and hitting her. When she pleaded with him to stop, Trump allegedly responded by “violently striking Plaintiff in the face with his open hand and screaming that he would do whatever he wanted.” The woman also claims Trump threatened to harm her family if she told anyone.

“Immediately following this rape, Defendant Trump threatened me that, were I ever to reveal any of the details of Defendant Trump’s sexual and physical abuse of me, my family and I would be physically harmed if not killed,” the plaintiff said in an affidavit. The alleged victim claims she was too scared to come forward until this year and has asked the court to waive the statute of limitations, which for most sexual assault claims in New York is five years.

Both “Joan Doe” and “Tiffany Doe” say they worked as party planners for Epstein, who allegedly paid them to procure underage girls to sex parties at his home. “Tiffany” stated in court documents that she lured “Jane” to the billionaire pedophile’s home by promising her money and introductions to contacts in the modeling business. She claims both Epstein and Trump knew the girls’ ages, and that she saw Trump assaulting both “Jane” and a 12-year-old girl identified as “Maria.”

“I personally witnessed four sexual encounters that the Plaintiff was forced to have with Mr. Trump during this period, including the fourth of these encounters where Mr. Trump forcibly raped her despite her pleas to stop,” she said, adding that Trump forced “Maria” to perform oral sex on him before physically abusing both children.

”Tiffany” also alleges both Trump and Epstein threatened to harm her, her family and the other children and their families if they ever told anyone what happened to them. “I personally witnessed Defendant Trump telling the Plaintiff that she shouldn’t ever say anything if she didn’t want to disappear like the 12-year-old female Maria, and that he was capable of having her whole family killed,” she said in court documents.

“Tiffany Doe” says she worked as a procuress for Epstein from 1990-2002, and that when she stopped, he threatened to kill her and her family if she revealed his alleged history of raping children.

Trump has previously blasted the rape accusations as untrue. “The allegations are not only categorically false, but disgusting at the highest level and clearly framed to solicit media attention or, perhaps, are simply politically motivated,” the candidate told Radar Online in April. “There is absolutely no merit to these allegations. Period.”

Epstein also denies the allegations. The 63-year-old financier, who is widely believed to have preyed upon dozens of underage girls in the 1990s and 2000s, pleaded guilty in 2008 to soliciting a minor for sex. He was sentenced to 18 months in the Palm Beach County, Florida jail, followed by a year of house arrest and designation as a sex offender. Trump has previously hinted at his friend’s penchant for “younger” partners.

“I’ve known Jeff for fifteen years. Terrific guy,” Trump said in an interview with New York magazine. “He’s a lot of fun to be with. It is even said that he likes beautiful women as much as I do, and many of them are on the younger side.”

More than a dozen women have recently come forward to accuse Trump of sexual assault and other unwanted physical contact over a period of decades.

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We Have No Choice – We Must Support the Democratic Party

Latias: Look at the comment section in this thread.

It really shows how anti-imperialist the Mainstream Left is. Look at the hostility the author gets.

From the author:

[There was a reference to Putin dining with Jill Stein]

Based on death toll, better to dine with Putin than 3 presidents in my lifetime — [W?] Bush, Reagan or Nixon. I prefer cooperation to confrontation. We don’t need a new Cold War. The world’s greatest human rights violator abroad (that’s the USA in case you don’t now) is in no position to throw stones from its glass house. The candidate you mention is not without flaws – she has some unscientific views and that’s practically inexcusable from a physician. But Putin’s crimes abroad pale in comparison to those of every single US president of my lifetime, present administration included.

Yes, that is true about Putin.

First of all, that’s not really the Mainstream Left in the US. That’s the Democratic Party, and calling the Democratic Party Left is some sort of a sick joke. Daily Kos is the site of the left wing of the Democratic Party (the base), but those people are what we might call liberal Democrats, and in my opinion, there are hardly any Americans more awful than these liberal Democrats, mostly because there is almost nothing liberal about them. Liberal Democrats in the US are basically rightwingers in most of the rest of the planet.

The problem is that both parties are utterly committed to horrific US imperialism. The US is the imperialist pig enemy of all of mankind, but both parties are just fine with that and the majority of the American people think it’s great too. So the imperialism is probably going to be one of the last things to go. Trump ran as isolationist, but he is now governing as a wildly crazed typical American imperialist pig. Recall how horrifically imperialist even Bernie Sanders was. This murderous imperialist pig crap is nearly woven into the very genes of Americans. It will be very hard to root out.

We have to support the Democratic Party though. We have no choice. They sort of suck, but the Republicans are 50X worse. And the Democrats do do quite a few good things. The problem is more that there is progressive agenda simply yields incremental change. I can live with Democrats. I can’t live with Republicans. The Republican Party is one of the most extreme rightwing parties on the whole planet.

Look, let’s get real here. The United States itself is one of the most extreme rightwing countries on the planet. That’s the people of the US. The people – Americans – are basically fanatically ultra-rightwing freaks. They are out of step with nearly the entire planet. There are hardly any nations on Earth as rightwing as the US.

The only country more rightwing than the US I can think of is Colombia. Show me any other country anywhere on Earth where majorities regularly elect parties that are as radical right as the US Republican Party. Show me one country, one.

Well I will say that the new British government is trying to copy the Republican Party. But I do not think even the horrific Tories are as bad as the Republican Party. But the Tories are probably one of the only countries on Earth that actually ape the US Republicans. US Republican Party conservatism is pretty much rejected across the board in most every country on Earth.

Just a question. How rightwing are the governments of the Baltics and the Czech Republic nowadays? I do not think they are as rightwing as the US Republican Party. Estonia and Latvia are horrible countries, and all of the Baltic countries are Nazi countries with Nazi populations. Ukraine is run by out and out Nazis and maybe half the population are out and out Nazis, but even they do not practice US Republican Party conservatism.

And the present government does not even have the support of the majority. The only reason they are in power is because they outlawed the main opposition party, murdered some of its lawmakers and quite a few of its activists, and tried to set the house of its presidential candidate on fire. They failed in the last one, setting his neighbor’s house on fire. Oh by the way, the Ukrainians had the full support of the US in all of us. The US supported them as they outlawed the opposition party, murdered opposition lawmakers and many activists and tried to burn the opposition presidential candidate to death. After all, this murderous Nazi party was put in by the US government in a US-sponsored coup.

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What Is Masculinity in US Culture?

Jason Y: Generally, I would disagree with crying and find it unmanly. Nonetheless, I think those obsessed with masculinity, honor culture on the level of Chuck Norris etc.. are masking insecurity. But hey, we all go thru karate phases etc.. growing up. At some point, though, it begins to seem idiotic.

No they aren’t. Those guys are the most secure about their masculinity of all.

Want to get along with them? Real simple. Just mirror their behaviors somewhat and abide by their codes of ethics and behavior. They really do not require much, and it is surprisingly easy to get even the macho-est guys to respect you.

Guys don’t really care too much about how you live your life. I had women tell me, “Oh masculinity is courage or honor or dignity or work ethic or grace under pressure or bla bla this or that,” but really it’s not any of that. These women were shocked when I said all you have to do is walk, talk, sit, stand, hold your coffee cup, move your limbs, and have mannerisms in the proper way. There is also an emotional code you should conform to but that’s not too hard. There is also a behavioral and ethical code which is about how you are supposed to act and what you are supposed to say in any given circumstances.

The women were stunned, “You mean all you have to do to be a man is display certain mannerisms and behaviors, tone of voice, etc.”

That’s it. Masculinity in the US is more of a talk the talk thing than a walk the walk thing. It’s all about a certain type of display. You engage in that display and you are pretty much in. Not much else is required. You ought to be heterosexual. Masculine men don’t like faggots too much. They may accept them, but they don’t want them in their club. Nor are faggoty straight men welcome. That gay stuff is just not ok. It might help if you can get laid too. Even better yet if you can pull hot women. If you are straight, get laid and pull hot chicks a lot of masculine guys will give you a break on all sorts of other things.

There are a few other things. Don’t be a flake. That means emotional. Don’t be too emotional. In fact, you might not even be able to be very emotional at all. Masculine men don’t seem to like much emotional display, especially negative emotion. They don’t even like anger too much. Too much anger looks scary and it looks like you don’t have your shit together. Also you seem like a “kook” or a “nut” – someone who is going around looking for fights. Believe it or not, that is very unacceptable in masculine culture.

Masculine men actually spend a good part of their time toning down their anger, ignoring it, burying it, displacing it, etc. Men are so violent and dangerous that any proper functioning male society has to have rules that call for mass tamping down of the anger most if not all of the time. Once you loosen those controls and let men get as angry as they want to anytime they want to, they will start fighting.

And fights among men are just too ugly. They get physical almost immediately because words lead to fists very fast among men. And physical fights among men are not ok at all because men are so strong, so dangerous and with such potential for extreme violence that there is almost no such thing as a simple fistfight that is guaranteed to leave it at that. Even a simple shouting much or God forbid a fistfight can escalate very quickly into dangerous, harmful or even deadly violence.

This is why when  you see a lot of men together, one thing you will notice is that they are actually going to extreme lengths to keep any fights from breaking out. This leads to a lot of insincerity, men pretending to like men they don’t even like, and a lot of BS talk like endless jokes or talk about sex, sports or other meaningless subjects. All of those stupid jokes and pussy talk has one main purpose – to keep these men gathered here from killing each other!

If any sort of hassle or fight breaks out, a lot of men will dive in quickly to break it up. Even arguments get shut down by others very fast. The reason is because all men know how violent and dangerous men are so even arguments can blow out of control very fast. And most men want to minimize violence in their lives as much as possible. Most men have dealt with male on male violence and most have figured out that it’s not a pretty picture. It’s not harmless good fun. It’s scary as hell and most men are very much afraid of the violent potential of other men. Men who do not fear such things usually end up dead or in prison at a pretty early age.

Women actually display far more anger and violence than men, but in women the rage and violence is almost all verbal and emotional. It does not often go physical and even when it does, no one gets hurt because women are too weak and wimpy to fight well. This is actually a good thing because if women were as physically dangerous as men, the world would be at least twice or more as violent and dangerous as it is now and you would not want to live in that world. Every time I hear a man bitching about women, I say, “Sure they’re nuts, but that’s because they’re not like us. You really want to live in a world where all the women act like men? Living in a world where 50% of the population is men is bad enough.”

I would also say that gay men are much more violent and angry than straight men, but once again, it is mostly channeled into a lot of verbal aggression, bitchiness, bitch-outs, temper tantrums, jumping up and down, screaming and yelling, etc. Yes, you heard me right. When gay men get angry, they act exactly like an angry woman! It’s pretty easy to take because a man having a womanly bitch-out is more comical than infuriating.

People do not give men enough credit for the tremendous efforts they go through to keep the peace. Men are probably 1% as violent as they would like to be, or even less. That’s how repressed our rage and violence is. You take those controls off, and you get Iraq, Syria or Afghanistan real fast.

Don’t be nervous. Men hate nervousness. It is a feminine quality.

Don’t be depressed. If you are, hide it, dammit. Lie and say you’re not. Drink. Do something else instead. Anything. Men really hate depressed men. It’s unbelievably pussy. And women don’t like depressed men either. Actually, they hate them with a ferocity that must be seen to be believed.

Know the rules. Don’t break the rules and say or do stupid shit. That’s being a flake, a kook, a weirdo or an idiot.

Keep the gay stuff out. Homosexuality is out among masculine men. That’s the one place no one wants to go. You can’t even talk about it very much. Homosexuality is the turd in the punchbowl at any gathering of masculine men. Not only can you not do such things, but you cannot even think such things. A man giving off gay vibes like he’s turned on by other guys will see those vibes get picked up very fast and other men will start avoiding him. He may be asked to leave the gathering. Why? He’s the turd in the punchbowl. He’s ruining the whole gathering with his stupid faggy BS.

It might help if you worked. Men don’t like bums too much. You can’t work too hard to please other men. In fact, if you work more than one job or more than 40 hours a week, you will earn immense respect from other men for some reason. Workaholism is rewarded.

Don’t leech. Men don’t like leeches. If you do leech, lie and say you don’t. It’s not masculine to live off social services.

Don’t have a woman who openly ridicules you in public. If she ever does that, get in her face and say, “Shut up bitch!” It doesn’t matter who hears you or how shocked other people are. Nothing will happen. And you will earn brownie points for standing up to the bitch. Men don’t like pussy-whipped idiots who let their women push them around and bitch them out. Just having her do this is not bad in itself. What’s bad is if you puss out like a little girl, act submissive and hurt and tell her to stop in some whiny,  high-pitched girly voice. It’s disgusting to just sit there and take it like a pussy.

You have to either fight back against the bitch or act cold and mean towards her. If you are in say a restaurant and your girlfriend is bitching you out in public, people might start giving you funny looks. I remember older Mexican men looking at me with disgust when that happened to me. You need to have serious consequences for that behavior. If that happens, tell her to shut up and then stand up and say, “I am leaving until you stop being such a bitch.” Go outside. Go sit in your car. If it’s your car, you can even ask when she will be done and tell her you will come back and get her when she’s done. Or if you have not ordered yet, tell her you are leaving and she’s either coming with you or taking a taxi home.

It’s not so much that it is humiliating to have your woman bitch you out in public. It’s more the reaction of the people around you. Some other people will be disgusted by her bitch-out and their attitude will be that you are a big fat pussy girly-boy who cannot control his woman. You lose a lot of respect from those people and their respect is important.

It’s not real difficult to get along with masculine men. Just follow some basic rules, be very careful about every little thing you say and do, and everything should go smoothly. Most such guys want to like you. They would much rather like you than hate you. If you act in a likable and proper way, they are more than happy to have you as one of them.

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The Masculine Men’s Club – An Open Membership Society

Jason Y: That sounds about right. If you’re in the company of rednecks or hypermasculine douchebags, then obviously they’re not tolerating any androgyny.

Men are very good at seeing masculinity in other men. Women are just idiots about this stuff.

Just my experience. It’s been women who have been telling me that I am not masculine enough. Guys, generally speaking, don’t say that to me. Even rough, tough, macho, redneck guys seem to accept me on some weird level.

I finally figured out that they can see the masculine side in me, and that it is extremely strong, about as strong as theirs. So while there is this weird feminine stuff going on with me too, at the same time, I know all of the hypermasculine codes, behavioral mandates, ways of moving, walking, sitting, standing, expression, proper emotions, tone of voice, muscle tone, along with all the myriad masculine social codes, etc. For instance, my feelings are very, very controlled. They see the masculine side, and they think, “Ok, grudging acceptance.” They see the feminine stuff, and they figure that the masculine side pretty much cancels that out or makes it so it’s not so important.

The big lie is that hypermasculine men hate feminine behavior. They don’t. They think it’s weird, and they don’t understand it, but they don’t hate it. What they do hate though is a lack of masculine behavior. That’s what they really hate. If you can mirror their hypermasculinity well (and I can), you can get away with a lot of stuff on the feminine side too. Men don’t think that feminine behavior cancels out masculine behavior. They just want to see that macho stuff. As soon as they see that, you are part of their special Club or in crowd and they will always accept you, even on some weird, grudging level.

To be a member of the Masculine Men’s Club, you have to be:

+masculine

Acceptable:

+feminine

– feminine

As long as you are +masculine, it doesn’t really matter if you are +feminine or -feminine. You’re allowed to have feminine stuff as long as that masculine side is solid and observable.

To disallow membership in the club, you have to be:

-masculine

It really helps if you are obviously heterosexual too. Men don’t really care about male feminine behavior as long as the guy is straight and especially if he’s really good at getting women, especially hot women. If a guy can regularly screw hot women, they pretty much accept him fully just for that right there, and they could care less about how he acts because to masculine men, how you act is not that important. That’s sort of one of the tests – the pussy test. Men are very pragmatic.

Hypermasculine men are not as stupid as you think. Actually, they are extremely smart, especially about this masculinity – femininity – heterosexuality, etc. thing. Generally speaking, if it’s pretty obvious you like pussy and even better yet you can fuck hot women, they will just blow off everything else and just assume you are straight.

This type of man is very willing to compromise, and he wants you to be in his secret club. His bias is to see you as one of the members of his club. He’s not going to be biased towards seeing you as not cutting it. Men will give you a lot of breaks and give up a lot of ground just to see you are a member of their club. They would much rather have you as a member of the Masculine Men Club than not a member. They don’t like guys who are not club members, and they would much rather you join up with them than be one of those idiots who are outside of the club. They will literally search around for reasons to see how they can weasel you into the club. I think most of these men would be perfectly happy if 99% of the men in their world were Masculine Men’s Club members. They would like as few men as possible to not be in the Club.

If they are not sure about you, if they even see you reading a Playboy, for instance, they will walk up to you with a big smile and shake your hand and maybe give you a high five. Because that means you’re straight. They wanted you to be straight, but they were not sure that you were. Once they find out that you are, Yeehaw! You are one of the boys.

It’s a big myth that hypermasculine men are always going around trying to exclude other men from the Man’s Club on some flimsy grounds.

Some men do this of course, but they are typically very insecure. These are the ones who run around gay-baiting straight men, accusing straight men of being gay and even gay-bashing straight men. You would be amazed how many straight men get gay-bashed. No one ever talks about this, but it happens a lot.

I think that the whole reason behind the homophobes’ behavior is “policing masculinity.” These men are very insecure for some reason because the more secure men, as mentioned above, are always looking to give you a break and see some evidence that you are part of their Club. These other guys are running around trying to throw men out of the Club for not meeting some exacting expectations.

Homophobes are weird. One of the worst and most violent homophobes I have ever met – this guy literally beat up straight guys accusing them of being gay – some almost to the point of unconsciousness – was known to collect gay pornography. I know this because his roommate told me that he found gay porn in the gay-basher’s room.

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A Look at the Chinese Model – A Non-Capitalist Mode of Development

Juanny Boy: Robert – I have a question about this.

What’s the benefit of Centrally planning industries that are largely not predatory like clothing, computers, etc.?

It seems they are produced less efficiently under Marxism.

But in industries like health care, water, it is a necessity because of the potential for abuse.

I am not a fan of central planning.

However, the Chinese model works very well. 45% of the Chinese economy is publicly owned.

  1. Force public enterprises to compete internationally. Sink or swim. The #2 leading producer of TV’s in the world is a state-owned company in China that is officially owned by its workers.
  2. Chinese public firms compete with each other. So a steel factory in City A would compete with a steel industry in City B.
  3. Chinese public firms are run to make a profit. The profits from public firms simply go back to the various levels of the state and these profits are distributed to the people in a variety of ways. That’s a really cool use of company profits!
  4. Many Chinese public firms are run at a low level such as the municipality level. In other words, many of the firms are run by small cities. The cities compete with each other. Workers own all the companies so as the company makes more money their paychecks go up. Also as the firm does better, the city invests more and more money in the city to make it a more attractive place for workers. For instance, they fix up the workers’ housing and make it a lot nicer. Hence you get a lot of workers coming from all over trying to get jobs in these booming city industries in part because the living conditions are so good.
  5. I understand that once an industry becomes a certain size, the Chinese government simply obtains ownership in the firm. Now how they do this, I have no idea whether they buy in or what. Maybe they own 51%. But I believe they then take a hands off approach and let you run your company any way you want. But I suppose they may want 51% of the profits. I am not sure how it works.

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A Look at the Cooperative Mode of Development

Juanny Boy: Robert – I have a question about this.

What’s the benefit of Centrally planning industries that are largely not predatory like clothing, computers, etc.?

It seems they are produced less efficiently under Marxism.

But in industries like health care, water, it is a necessity because of the potential for abuse.

One thing we could do is to have firms owned by their workers. This is called the Cooperative Mode of Development and I think this is a great model. Many say it is a non-capitalist mode of development. For instance, in this model there is no exploitation of workers, no labor theory of value, etc.

In capitalist firms, workers and management and ownership are enemies. The management and owners are always trying to abuse the workers more and more because the worse they abuse the workers, the more money they make.

But when workers own enterprises, there is no incentive to reduce worker pay and benefits, force longer work hours, skip on regulations, disallow sick and vacation time or to abuse workers at all. Why would the workers who own firm vote to lower their salaries, reduce their benefits, make their working conditions worse, deregulate the firm, disallow vacation and sick time, or raid worker pensions. There is no incentive to do any of these things.

Further in capitalism, there is a tremendous incentive to replace workers with machines. But if workers owned the company, why would workers vote to replace themselves with machines? Which workers would be so stupid as to say, “Please fire me and replace me with a machine. I will just gladly become poor, broke and unemployed?” No one will say that.

One problem is that workers cannot be counted on to run their own plants. They tried this in Yugoslavia and it did not work. The revenue from the firm could either be taken home as profit or reinvested in  the firm. Workers generally chose to give themselves large paychecks and to underinvest in the firm. This eventually caused the collapse of the enterprise because if you stop sinking money back into your firm, eventually your enterprise falls apart from lack of internal investment.

The Mondragon cooperatives in the Basque Country of Spain have solved this. All the plants are worker owned and controlled, however the workers do not have the right to decide how much of the revenue to take home as pay and how much to reinvest in the firm. These decisions are made at the highest level. All of the co-ops are ultimately owned by several large regional banks. It is here that the decisions about how to allocate revenues are made. Workers cannot be relied upon to make these decisions because they consistently choose to take home too much as pay and to not reinvest enough in the firm.

In addition, at Mondragon, the workers hire and fire their own management. You would think that workers would abuse this also as they would hire the managers that let them slack off the most and did not force them to work hard or be responsible. However, there has been no such abuse. Workers make good choices for management – firm but fair managers. The important point is if the management becomes abusive, they can be fired by the workers.

This Cooperative Mode of Development works very well in  my opinion.

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Game/PUA: “Magic” as the X-Factor in Game

Having a killer instinct essentially means being “a force of nature.”

It is more common in men but can be seen in women as well. It is also more desired in men.

Being a force of nature can override feminine traits in how women view you, I suppose.

Oh yeah, I definitely have that, that’s for sure, lol. I have this thing that I call “Magic.” I can turn it on, and I suppose I can turn it off. But turning it on is quite difficult. Mostly it just requires a lot of work. I have to work quite hard to work myself into this state. I have to psych myself up for it, and it is not an easy state to get into. You really have to work at it to get into it, as it does not come naturally. Then you have to work pretty hard to stay in it and keep the Magic going. Also you have to control your thoughts and feelings very well the whole time you are in it. In a way what it is all about is severe control of thoughts and feelings. It’s not a natural state at all. It is utterly contrived and completely calculated. Everything you do in that state is extremely calculated. There’s no room for spontaneity when you have the Magic on.

I definitely attract way more women (and even girls still!) when I turn on the Magic than when I do not. At my age, with the Magic off I do not get much response from females most of the time.

But with the Magic on, I do a lot better. And I get a lot of those blank, robot, zombie, hypnotized stares from women. A lot of overtly flirtatious behavior.

I also get a lot of “bedroom eyes.” The bedroom eyes are related to the hypnotized stare, and they often go together.

What are bedroom eyes? Look straight ahead at an object. Now lower your head. Now raise your eyes up to the object you were looking at. In bedroom eyes, the head is lowered, but the eyes are looking upwards up at the top of the eyelid near the eyebrow. These are also called “hooded eyes.”

Bedroom eyes and hooded eyes means she wants to fuck. You’re making her horny. If you see them outside of bed or with someone you do not know well, it is very good. When you are involved in sexual situations with women, you can see them too, often right before she is getting ready to fuck. Like she looks at you, gives you the zombie stare, and then goes into the hooded eyes as she is stripping off her clothes.  It means, “You are making me horny and I want to fuck you,” or “You are making me horny and I am going to fuck you.”

It doesn’t mean she is really going to do it. I got that severely from a 16 year old girl recently on two separate occasions on the same day. At age 58! What!? I doubt if she really wanted to do it, and I certainly hope I could have controlled myself. Just because you make a woman go into “I want to fuck you” mode doesn’t mean she is really going to do it. Maybe she is married. Maybe she has a boyfriend. Think about it. Your average woman might get turned on by, how many? 10,000 different men in a lifetime? 100,000 men? So you think your average woman fucks 10,000-100,000 men in a lifetime? Come on.

Bedroom eyes are great though, just like zombie stares. If you ever get either of those, you really need to recognize what they are and consider doing something about it. Don’t be a mouse.

That killer instinct or force of nature thing is great for getting laid. I have been thinking a lot about the “X factor” in Game. I call it “Magic.” It’s not really quantifiable or even qualifiable. It’s just a vibe – the vibe or vibes you give off. And there’s a ton of psychology that goes into it.

Also has to with energy, sending out energy into the environment where it can be received by others, in the sense of that energy being an actually existing thing that is qualifiable if not quantifiable. Actually existing as in you can almost feel it in your bones. Studies that suggest that this tactile energy exists including studies about “the eyes in the back of your head.” Studies have shown that people can actually tell when someone is looking at them even if the person is in back of them or cannot be seen at all. For instance, in some studies, the people were being watched via a grill in a department store. There was no way to see the person inside of that grill. Yet nevertheless, the studies showed that shoppers acted a lot different when there was someone in that grill looking at them than when there wasn’t.

There have also been many reports of people who go on vacation, and then on the day they are coming home, the pet seems to be aware of it and even goes outside to wait for them. And many anecdotal reports of pets going to wait by the phone even 5-30 minutes before their master rings it.

All very strange, but this all operates off of psi forces, the same involved in telepathy, clairvoyance, ghosts, demons, near death experiences, etc., all five of which I am certain exist.

In other words, the Magic X-factor in Game is psychological and may even involve psi forces. For sure it involves “energy” as in the kind that science says doesn’t even exist.

 

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