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The Female Sex Drive as Sociologically and Societally Mediated Mechanism

A previous post talked about people who like their sex a bit on the rough side. An incredible number of women like their sex like that. And don’t ask me how I know that. They seem like these pretty, fussy, dainty little angelic virgins when you see them in public, but there’s a whole other side to the Feminine Character.

It’s not that it doesn’t exist, it’s more that it doesn’t get turned on all that much. It’s like there’s a lightswitch on their back and you have to flip that thing into the On position to bring out the latent nympho. And I am convinced by a lifetime of experience that the majority or even the vast majority of women are latent nymphos – they just need the right man to bring it out of them. If he never shows up, the nympho simply never comes out to play, and you end up with a rather puritanical, anti-sex woman with a low sex drive. There are whole societies like this. That is because those societies take that light switch and turn it to the Off position, and it’s hard for women in those societies to turn on the switch.

So you end up with generations like my mother’s. I used to hear the women of her generation sit around and talk, and of course they talked about sex. The general impression was that they were not into it that much, that it was a chore their husbands imposed on them, that men were way too horny, etc. The old male cliche about female sexuality – that women don’t like sex too much. They often said that if they could give up sex for the rest of their lives and just be cuddled and held in bed instead, they would do it. Indeed, older surveys showed up to 2/3 of women checking yes on that statement.

There’s no way that these modern women would settle for that. Most single women that I meet masturbate to orgasm all the time if they don’t have a partner. They range in age from 18-59. Every day or even 3-4 times a day is not unusual. Once they figure out how to get that orgasm, they’re basically addicts. Further, we now live in a society that has taken that switch on females’ backs and turned it to a permanent On position. This is how a society of females acts when you turn that switch on and leave it on. In some ways, they’re almost as horny as men.

The female sex drive has no essential nature. It exists, but only as a switch to be turned On or Off. And who gets to decide if that switch is On or Off? Society. In any given society, the female sex drives of its members is mostly determined by the extent to which society allows it to express.

Turn it Off and you get a society of Puritanical women don’t like sex too much – the old cliche about female sexuality.

Turn that damn thing to On, especially at a very early age – say teens or even early teens, and watch out.

It’s like letting wild animals out of the zoo to roam around the streets. Females are capable of a lot more than you think. It’s just that it doesn’t naturally come out. It needs to brought out of them or simply “allowed”.

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Orgasm Addicts

Women are masturbating like crazy for some time now, a good decade I would say, and maybe even longer. I’d call it a fad, but I’m afraid it’s more accurate to say it’s here to stay. Generally they are almost all capable of orgasm, and they usually reach orgasm when they masturbate.

I knew one wife in a sexless marriage where it was the husband who was not having sex (mostly for physical reasons) who rediscovered the joys of masturbation. She was in her 40’s and she was in a sexless marriage. She told me she was doing it 7-10 X/week. That’s about in line with most single women I have known.

If there’s no man around, most single women nowadays aged 27-50 are masturbating just about every day. Some maniacs are even doing it 3-4 X/day. I have had female friends in their 20’s who sometimes did it off and on all day if they have the day off or all night if they don’t have to get up in the morning. I knew a woman who had a driving job, and she used to go to abandoned parking lots between calls and rub herself off in her car in broad daylight. I would be texting one of my woman friends, and she would say, “Excuse me, I have to go masturbate. Be back in a bit.” I would chuckle, and then 30 minutes later I would get another text, “Damn that felt good!”

A lot of them stop or slow way down after menopause when the female sex drive often goes belly up but I had a date with a 58 year old woman recently who told me she masturbated pretty much whenever she felt like it.

Even teenage girls are doing this. I had an 18 year old girlfriend several years ago who told me when I met her that she did it every day.

How do I know all of these gruesome details? Women told me!

And then of course there was my infamous survey of young teenage girls posting on teenage girl chatrooms about their masturbation habits. I do a lot of research on sexology, mostly around sexual orientation. I think there is me and a gay clinical psychologist (who I have tremendous respect for, as he is actually doing good science), and we are the only people in the country actually studying this issue. The question about the causes of sexual orientation has been taken over by science-allergic Gay Lobby and Cultural Left types who are are mostly obfuscating the issue, lying like mad, and flooding it with gay propaganda like they always do.

I was looking at teenage girls’ bulletin boards to try to get some data on the onset of some puberty milestones and menarche these days, as there are a lot of reports that the age of puberty is going down. I also wanted to find the age at which the female sex drive came on, as there is almost no data about this, shamefully. I was reading through their responses and tallying them up. It happened that on a lot of these boards, the girls were discussing masturbation, so I thought, the Hell with it, might as well tally this up too. I read through their responses and tallied them up just like the other figures I was researching.

The figures really shocked me. ~70% of girls aged 13-15 reported that they were masturbating to orgasm every day or almost every day.

Even more stunning was that ~7% of 13-15 year old girls were masturbating with their own sisters! What!? They were either each doing it on their own next to each other or they were actually having sex with each other to get each other off. Apparently none of them were lesbians. I had no idea there was this much incest between sisters. Parents have no idea what their kids get up to.

Once females figure out how to have that orgasm, a lot of them are addicts.

When I meet a single woman now as part of dating or pre-dating, I usually don’t even bother to ask if she masturbates because I figure they all do.

I also have to ask questions about masturbation sometimes with my female counseling clients (and of my male counseling clients too for that matter), particularly when we are dealing with sexual themes. I would love to not have to ask questions about this, but when they come to me with sexual themes that they are going through, it’s a necessary part of the process, and a large part of my practice involves people dealing with sexual stuff. Almost all (90%) of my female counseling clients masturbate, even the married women. I must add that a few don’t though. Even women from very conservative cultures such as Pakistani Muslim women say they do it.

I remember when I was growing up, girls and women never discussed this subject. Either they weren’t doing it, or they were doing it and not talking about it. There was this idea that it was a shameful subject. It was not uncommon to have a girlfriend who said she didn’t do it. I can’t remember one girl or woman that I dated who told me that they masturbated.

I also remember a lot of discussions about women who could not reach orgasm during sex, and I had girlfriends who never got off or even more frequently, were not sure if they reached orgasm, whatever the Hell that means. Surveys routinely found that 25-30% of women were anorgasmic, that is apparently they had never had an orgasm in their lives. Nobody talks about women who can’t reach orgasm anymore. They’re all masturbating like forest shrews on speed, and once they figure out how to get that orgasm, they can usually give themselves one anytime they feel like it.

It’s like something has changed. There are theories of early sexualization that state that teenage girls nowadays are undergoing early and profound sexualization due to a variety of things, but the availability of Internet porn seemed to be the main factor. There was a documentary about this a few years ago. I forget the name of it. The lead character is a 12-year-old girl, and in my opinion, she is far too sexualized for her age. It’s quite shocking.

There are also reports that girls who get molested when they are little girls experienced an increased sex drive, sometimes said to be up to 3-5X higher, when their sex drive comes on at puberty. It’s as if the early molestation “primes” them for the real thing.

Good God, we are raising whole generations of female masturbation addicts!


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Game/PUA: The Advantages of Older Women – the Older, the Kinkier

A lot of women of all ages are perverts. I have known many women of all ages who masturbated to orgasm every day or most every day. One did it 10 X/week (45 years old) and I knew one who did it 3-4 X/day (50 years old). Many have been doing this for years. I knew a woman in her 20’s who sometimes masturbated all night long or off and on all day.  She had a driving job once and during the lulls when there were no calls, she would drive to an empty parking lot and masturbate there. Wow! That’s the sort of thing men do. Once women figure out how to have that orgasm, most of them are addicts. Masturbating to orgasm every day? That’s as horny as a man! Women are hornier than you think.

Nowadays, I often date women in their 40’s and now in their 50’s. A lot of them are serious perverts. Most are total sex maniacs who want to do it all the time. And as women get older, they get kinkier too for some reason. I figure once a woman gets to about age 50 or so, she has probably accumulated a few perversions and kinks along the way, no?

A lot of older women can have multiple orgasms, but not too many young women can.

It’s a lot easier to talk to older women about sex than it is to talk to young women about it. Older women just seem to accept it as a fact of life, and talking about sex is like talking about eating or sleeping with them. I think by the time they get into their 40’s and 50’s, most women have had enough sex and they have figured out that they like it a lot.

I think maybe it takes women a long time to finally get rid of their inhibitions and open up all the way. I have known women who had such deep and serious inhibitions, in one case due to fundamentalist Christian upbringing, that they did not finally flower sexually until they were after age 40. After that, they set about quickly to make up for lost time.




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America, Land of Sex-Crazy Puritans

When It Comes To Sex, Americans Are Barking Mad and Always Have Been

What in the Hell is the matter with Americans anyway? Why are we so insane about sex? America has always been insane about sex, possibly dating back to its puritan roots. The fact that this is the only Western country with a huge fundamentalist religious movement cannot be helpful.

On the one hand, there is free porn everywhere, all over the Internet, available for anyone to see, even underage teenagers. And underage teens of both sexes definitely watch porn. By age 18, I would gather that the vast majority of teens of both sexes have seen Internet porn. I had a client once who had started masturbating compulsively to Internet porn at age 11. And, get this, this person was female. Yep, an 11 year old girl masturbating compulsively to Internet porn. Now obviously she’s an outlier, but the point is taken.

She brought up the issue of “early sexualization” regarding today’s kids in regards to her own experience.

In addition to flooding society with free porn, we fetishize and nearly mandate sex. We make it impossible to criticize even the sickest, most messed up sex acts.

Gay men like to eat shit? That’s just fine! Don’t you know it’s homophobic to criticize that?

Sick people get into S/M relationships where a sadistic man basically abuses a self-hating masochistic women, all done under the rubric of S/M of course, so we are not allowed to criticize it, except that in terms of its dynamics, it looks exactly like any abusive relationship with a cruel man and suffering, Stockholmed battered woman? This is basically torture sex. We are not allowed to criticize torture sex. If people want to torture each other, that’s their business!

Another thing not discussed is the relationship between S/M, B/D sex and psychopathy and sex crimes, including kidnapping, rape, torture, murder and serial murder. It is extremely common for men who committed violent sexual crimes against women to have a background interest in S/M B/D sex. Women involved in the scene report that many of the male doms (really just sadistic men) have sociopathic tendencies, and many are out and out psychopaths.

A lot of the masochistic women who come out of the “consensual” S/M B/D scene end up damaged, often seriously, by years of abuse done under the “cool” rubric of S/M B/D. The sort of damage that they present with looks exactly like the psychological damage that women in abusive relationships show. But hey, that’s just fine. A sex scene that produces rapists, kidnappers, torturers, murderers and serial killers is just fine! And you’re a stuffy uptight prude if you disagree!

Gay men want piss on each other and drink each other’s piss? Well that’s just fine! How uptight of us to object to such a thing! We must be evil or something. Why don’t we try it ourselves? What’s wrong with you? You won’t drink piss? What, are you frigid or impotent or something?

Gay men want to shove fists up each other’s asses, sometimes causing serious damage to their bodies? How dare we object. We are evil homophobes! Fisting is just fine! We must be uptight or something. Why don’t we try it ourselves, we might like it?

For straight people, sex is nearly mandatory, even if you are single. I knew a 19 year old college girl who absolutely hated herself because she was still (technically) a virgin. She said she felt like a total loser. You can go on the Internet and read underage teenage girls complaining bitterly that they are still virgins and predicting that they will be virgins all the way to age 18. One was so angry about it that she was determined to seduce one of her father’s friends just to get rid of her virginity.

Guys who can’t get laid are considered losers. We are all supposed to be having tons of sex all the time, and if we are not, we are hung up, failures, losers and maybe even mentally ill, sick or even evil. I have seen people call men who were not getting any evil on many occasions. If you’re not having sex, you’re a sinner! Wow. We’ve turned morality upside down. Sins are virtues and virtues are sins! Sade would be proud of us.

At the same time as we push this Wild West bacchanalia sexual free for all with its sinful chastity and virtuous whoredom, we are probably the most puritanical country in the entire West. Most of this is being driven by Gender Feminism, one of the most fanatically puritanical movements to emerge in our time and  probably by the Christian fundamentalism, which is somehow working right alongside the whorish Babylon. So we hate sex, and we are sex-crazy. This actually makes sense because there is evidence that the more you repress sex, the more sex-crazy people get due to pent-up frustration.

Way to go, Americans! Way to be stupid! Keep being idiots! Don’t stop now! You’re just getting started.


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About that Evil Study I Did

Bumface the bestest: Also they’re not pre-pubertal at that age but peripubertal. Plenty 11/12 yo girls have boobs and pubes and want to fuck.

In case you are wondering, this person is a pedophile-hebephile who has been coming to my site for some time now. He’s also a troll, and I do not appreciate him linking to little girls and Lolitas in the comments. He’s been banned a number of times, mostly for trolling, but he keeps coming back. I’m not a pedophile or a hebephile of course despite widespread popular lies insisting that I am. I hope I would be OK if I was one and just happened to get wired up that way, but it was not in the stars. I like my females fully developed and in this day and age, definitely over the age of consent. It’s just not worth 10 years in prison for hot little teenage girl piece of ass. Why risk it?

The line that he repeats above seems to be something that most pedophiles believe. They all seem to believe that prepubertal children of both sexes have raging sex drives and are dying to have sex with their peers and even adult men. This sounds like a self-fulfilling fantasy on the part of the pedophiles who want to believe that what they are doing is perfectly OK with children as the kids want it anyway.

I always suspected it was a myth and that was what set me off on the quick and dirty study I did on the Net for which I have been ripped to  pieces over. However, I told my female FNP about this little study I did, and she was very interested and urged me to continue my research. She specializes in Female Health including sexual health, so she had a great interest in this topic. She was adamant that all teenage girls should have access to free contraception.

What drove me to want to do this little study was an attempt by me to try to test a notion that pedophiles kept tossing out that little kids are sex-starved, horny as Hell, and dying for sex, including with adults. Obviously it is convenient for pedophiles to believe this as it validates their behavior and makes it seem non-harmful or even beneficial. But I was always suspicious of this theory, and I suspected that the pedophiles were lying. My working hypothesis was that prepubertal children had no real sex drive the way we adults did.

This led me to the question of exactly when the sex drive begins in females, as I care nothing about males. Despicably, there is almost nothing about this in any sort of scientific literature. Once you put “sex drive” and “prepubertal children” together in a  sentence, most people fly into crazed hysterics and lose all rational thought. They’re effectively insane for the whole time they are thinking about this subject. It’s sets off their Mass Hysteria.

So I set out to determine when the sex drive in human females comes on anyway. Along the way, I wanted information about milestones such as breast onset, pubic hair onset, and menarche, as there is a lot of talk that the ages of these events were lowering in recent decades.

I put some words into Google and was quickly led to some bulletin boards where teenage girls aged 13-15 were giving the board questionnaires with these questions in them. The boards were teenage girl only. Of course they were all very enthusiastic about answering these questions, whereas adults apparently think that girls this age having these interests is despicable, vile, sick, and evil. This attitude is terrible and shows our profound hatred for teenage girls in denying them the right to experience these feelings in a normal and rational manner.

So the impetus for this little was based on my anti–pedophile ideology! I was trying to prove that pedophiles were lying about this and to catch them in their lie! Somehow this little anti-pedophile study I did has been twisted around by 95% of people to mean that I am a pedophile or pro-pedophile myself! Isn’t that insane?

This just goes to show that we are currently experiencing a Moral Panic and Mass Hysteria on the subject of child sex and teenage sex. Really it’s Teenage Girl Mass Hysteria because no one seems to care what teenage boys do their dicks. I would like to point out to all the idiots pushing this mass hysteria, 90% of whom are women, that they are being profoundly misogynistic about this matter. They are showing extreme hatred for teenage girls while letting teenage boys off the hook. It’s disgusting to see many women engulfed in self-hate like this.

In the course of my study, I found that pubic hair onset was age 12 but sex drive onset was not until age 13. Menarche also seemed to be around age 13. I only found one case of pubic hair onset at age 11. Only one girl was masturbating at age 12, and only one did not start until age 14. Age 13 seems to be the magic age nowadays. I did have a female client who started masturbating compulsively to Internet porn at age 11 though.

In response to the pedophile’s comment above, I have some remarks. I tell you what. I have met quite a few 12 yr old girls around here the last decade or so in this town. Some of them lived in my complex.

One thing I can tell you for sure about 12 year old girls is that they absolutely do not want to fuck, they have no interest in either boys or men, they mostly have stick little boy bodies, many have little to no observable tits, and basically they are still little girls, not a lot different from a 10-11 yr old girl who has no sex drive at all.

Also they seem very worried about, frightened and suspicious of men, and it is very hard to talk to them. They act like they are terrified of us. They still have high pitched little girl voices and they call their fathers “Daddy” just like little girls do. They’re not ready for the sexual game. It’s basically a little girl!

But by age 13, something revolutionary happens to their bodies and minds, and they are just not little girls anymore. That event is the onset of a full-blown adult sex drive.

I still don’t think adult men should be able to have sex with 13 year old girls – it’s just not right, but they have full sexual rights as sexual beings, and they should have a right to legal sex with their peers all the way up to age 17. In other words, it ought to be legal for them to do that. Now whether it’s a good idea or not is another story. But arresting teenagers and convicting them in a court of law for the crime of having sex with their 13-17 year old peers is utter madness. It’s cruel and insane. This needs to be dealt with inside of the family itself, but good luck with that. Ask around about how well parents can control hormonal boy-crazy teenage girls.


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Where Nature Screwed Up: The Conundrum of the 13 Year Old Girl

Nowadays 13 year old girls have most all gone through sexarche, which brings along with it a roaring sex drive and a desire to have sex with other people. Most 13 year old girls are masturbating to orgasm on a regular, often daily basis. We need to come to terms somehow with the fact that girls this age are fully sexual human beings with all the feelings and desires that go along with that.

I don’t quite know what to do about this, but masturbation should surely be allowed. I would much rather have girls that age masturbating than having sex.

That’s pretty young to be having sex. It’s doubtful whether most 13 year old girls are mature enough to handle sex with other people which can result in pregnancy, STD’s, etc,  although it is quite difficult for girls this age to get pregnant.

Girls are very childlike and immature at this age, and it’s hard to see how they are mature enough to handle sex. Many adults are barely mature enough to handle sex with other people. So you have what amounts to a little girl with the mind of a child who also has the beginnings of a woman’s body and a woman’s full sex drive. Honestly it would be better if the sex drive came on later when girls are more mature and able to deal with realities of sex. This mismatch between a human with a child’s mind and a woman’s body seems to be an error of nature.

In the meantime, parents and society have to deal with the conundrum of sexually active 13 year old girls, which is something I don’t even like the idea of. Nevertheless we need to somehow as a society figure out what to do about this.


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Stop Masturbation Now!


All right all you guys, stop fapping right this minute! You are all going to break your damn dicks if you keep it up like this.

And ladies, quit rubbin’ the nubbin. It is not very ladylike you know!


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Story of the Day


Read and learn.

I guess it takes all types to fill the freeways, eh?

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Child Pornography on the Internet: An Investigative Report by Internetman

A few years ago, I met a fellow who I will call Internetman. Three years ago, he was about 40 years old. I didn’t take notes of our conversation, so I will reconstruct it from scratch. Obviously, he will sound like me. This is what happens when you don’t take notes or record. All interviewees sound like you.

He was involved in the early Internet scene from 1998-2001 or so, and he delved into the Internet pedo and child porn scene, if only out of curiosity. He’s a straight male with an attraction to mature females, but he’s also somewhat attracted to females aged 13-15 and very much less attracted to females age 7-12. In other words, he’s a completely normal male in terms of age attraction.

One thing I will say about him is that he is a trysexual. He’s a total sex maniac who has screwed more women than I can count, plus maybe a guy or two. He is into most every perversion and kink on Earth, so it figures he would dabble in the pedo thing for a bit.

My dx is that he is not a pedophile in any way, shape or form, though obviously, many may differ. He’s simply one of the biggest sex freaks I’ve ever met, and he’s a guy who thinks about, fantasizes about but not necessarily always does just about anything sexual.

During the interview, some strong pot was smoked by both parties, and we were drinking quite a bit of wine.

RL: Hi there, how are you?

Internetman: Fine,and you?

RL: So tell me about the Internet pedo/child porn scene. How did it all start for you?

Internetman: Well, I was into Yahoo chat rooms. I also went to all sorts of other perverted Internet chatrooms. I used to have cybersex with women there all the time, and also I made a lot of female friends and used to talk to them online about sexual matters and other stuff. I was also spending a lot of time in chatrooms chasing women of all sorts, trying to find new women.

So I was online talking to women, playing sex with women, or talking about sex with women a good part of the time. I was also dating sporadically. And of course I was jacking all the time, because I am Fapmaster Flash, the greatest fapmaster that ever lived.

RL: Not bigger than I was? I nearly broke my dick off there for a while!

Internetman: Well, close. A dick’s best friend is its hand.

RL: Anyway…

Internetman: Well, on Yahoo there used to be chatrooms that were turned over to Adults Only. There were also Romance Chat rooms, but those were bullshit, because I only want sex. Screw love. Sex first, then love later, maybe, if the woman wants to take it that way. There were also other weird Internet sex chatrooms set up all over the net, some devoted to particular fetishes. There were also swinger chatrooms, for sex swingers. I used to go to all those chatrooms to talk to chicks, play with them, whatever.

RL: How many women did you meet that way, in a sexual sense?

Internetman: Scores, hundreds, no idea.

RL: Were there cams around, or voice?

Internetman: This was before the cam era. The cams were just coming online around 2001. Voice was not common, but I voiced with a few chicks towards the end, around 2003. Also some called me up on the phone, and we sort of did phone sex. Most cybersex was just typing. Many people of both sexes and all ages were in on this. The number of women in the 20’s, 30’s and even 40’s into this stuff would seriously blow you away. Sure, there were tons of guys, but there were many, many women. And some were married women, looking for men.

RL: Did you meet any of them?

Internetman: No comment, but typically, or rather sadly, many lived too far away. I had women constantly inviting me to come see them, and saying that sex was going to be on the agenda. But I would have had to fly there, so I never went.

RL: What is the scene like now?

Internetman: Dead as Hell. It has all been taken over by scammers, spammers and camwhores. The rooms are full of women on cam, but they are all camwhores. All other women are bots advertising camwhores or porn sites. The chatrooms have all been destroyed by capitalism. There are no more female humans of any kind in there. It’s sad.

Also, around 2004, the rooms got invaded by Internet romance scammers out of the Philippines, Russia, Eastern Europe, Nigeria and other places in West Africa. You would strike up a relationship in there, and then the women would start asking for money while professing love. They ask for money for airline tickets to come see you, etc. A lot of times, it is a man pretending to be a woman, so you fall in love with a man. LOL. Many guys have been taken for a lot of money via this scam.

I also developed many close relationships with women overseas. Some fell in love with me. This was nice, but we never got together. Sometimes we talked on the phone. It seems ridiculous, but it’s always nice to be in love, even if it’s a continent away. If I had a choice between overseas Internet love and no love, I would choose the former. A life without love is painful to me. I’m a man who likes to be in love with a woman and especially vice versa.

RL: What were the adult rooms like?

Internetman: Yahoo set up many rooms around all these different adult themes. Then there were user rooms set up for different themes, and this is where there was some really perverted stuff going on. I mean seriously perverted! LOL!

RL: Did you keep doing this into the cam and voice era?

Internetman: Yes I did. After cams got big, a lot of guys had cams. But few women did. I would meet women online, and as soon as they figured out I had a cam, they would be like, “Get on that cam right now, dammit!” Then when I got on the cam, they would be like, “Take it off, baby!” You know how women are, a lot of them are just whores deep down inside. And I seem to bring it right out of them.

RL: Me too. Thank God for sluts!

Internetman: Yes, on the seventh day, God made sluts! Anyway, in 2004-2008, I had some relationships, mostly overseas, that were fun. Twice the women got on cam. One time this chick who lived a few hundred miles away was banging herself with a candle for like 1-2 hours. I had my cam on too, and I jacked and came, but she was a freight train. You know how woman are. They’re like a machine that once you turn it on, you can’t figure out how to shut it off!

Another time this woman from the Netherlands masturbated for about an hour or so with me. She was hot! Those were the only two times. One time a woman from Egypt got me on cam and I put on show while she cheered. Then she got on voice and masturbated on voice for a really long time. “Uggh, Ohhhh, Owwwwww….” It went on like that for 30 minutes or so. It was hot, man! You could hear the Cairo traffic below LOL. All three of those women were about 42-45, an age at which a lot of women are incredibly horny.

I had others who were always getting me on cam. Then they would start demanding I get naked. Then they want a show! So I gave them one. I used to jack for women all time on cam. It was a blast! They would watch, urge me on, cheer me on, etc. Sometimes I would take pics with my cam and mail them to the chicks, and the chicks would collect pics of me naked, jacking, whatever.

I also got some pics from women, like pics of their pussies, their tits, them wearing little to nothing, them naked, them fucking or sucking guys, etc. I had a whole collection of naked women pics. They were sending me this stuff all the time.

RL: I have a bunch of those too. Women were always sending me that stuff for a while. What is your opinion of cybersex?

Internetman: Good times! I even cybered with some relatively famous women. I talked to a few porn stars, mostly amateur, but some not. One from Japan and one from Germany. And one famous one from the US who I will not name. Straight cyber is a blast, but audio is better, and camming is the best. Best of all is audio or camming with the woman getting off and you can see or hear her, but it’s not that common. It’s mostly chicks getting you on cam and the chicks not having a cam.

RL: Did you ever worry it was a guy on the other end?

Internetman: A few times it was! One time I think it was a whole Internet chat cafe in Nigeria, with Black guys who must have been all laughing at me.

RL: Is there ever action right in the room?

Internetman: Sometimes there was action right in the room. In user-created rooms, they would set up themes. Some of them were really wild. Some had torture or enslavement themes. There were women in there who wanted to be submissive or enslaved or whatever.

I remember one time I was in this room called “Rape Me!” I know it sounds insane, but that room was full of women! And they all wanted to be raped! Crazy or what? This 33 year old married woman came in the room and she goes, “I’m going to piss all over these Goddamn bitches!” LOL. Good times!

Sometimes there were sex scenes right in the rooms. I would go at it right in the rooms with chicks and these other women would start cheering us on. “I’m watching Internetman! Oh Hell yeah.” I think they were masturbating watching me play with the chicks. It was fun!

There were rooms set up for kinks like golden showers. I went in this one room and there was this chick in the room and she was like, “Piss on me!” all the guys were walking up to her and pissing all over head. LOL! It was great!

RL: Were any of the females underage?

Internetman: You see,that’s the thing. Back in those days, there were so many females in rooms and on the Net. Females of all kinds were coming to chat on ICQ mostly, and some were underage. And there were some underage girls in the rooms too. And there were user-created rooms like Older Men for Younger Women and Younger Women for Older Men. They were extremely popular! Mostly teenage girls in there, age 15-up to young adulthood. You would go to talk to them, and they would be like, “I love older men! I love older men!” Guys would be like 20’s to 40’s or so. Do you have any idea how many teenage girls are into men, even older men? A lot! That’s partly why all these guys are going down. The girls are probably going after these men because that is exactly what they do.

RL: Did you ever mess around with the underage girls?

Internetman: Yes I did! LOL, what does that make me? A pedo? A pervert? Fuck it. I did it and it was fun. Girls were 15-17 for the most part. One was 14 from the Netherlands. She was in this room and she writes, “I want to suck a cok!.” She misspelled it LOL. I’m like cool, so I message her and we do it, tons of fun, and she was really perverted. After she asks me my age, and she freaked out at how old I was and was disappointed. I didn’t care, screw it!

One time I met this chick in there, 15 year old girl. She was seriously perverted, and we had a lot of fun. We exchanged pics, and I thought I was just going to get normal pics. Instead this 15 year old girl sent me nudes! So she sent me some nude pics, one when she was 14 and one when she was 15. The conversation ended because her mother’s boyfriend who was like 35 years old came in the room and wanted sex. She said she was going to go fuck him. I said, “Whoa! Don’t do it!” She said, “I can’t turn him down. I’m addicted.” Then she went offline.

RL: How were the pics?

Internetman: They were hot! A naked girl that age just looks like a woman, a little young, and the breasts are not quite as full, but they have full pussy hair and all. More or less a woman’s body by that age. Looked just as good as a naked woman, no better, no worse.

RL: Where are the pics?

Internetman: Deleted. Back in those days, it was no worries. But now things are extremely insane, and no way am I going to have any nude pics of teenage girls on my drive. I like women just fine anyway. I don’t have a teen fetish, and I think it’s weird if you do.

Another time this woman was in a chatroom. She was 18, but she had been molested all through her youth since age 8 by her family. Or that was her story. She told me this story, and how she had two sisters, 9 and 12 or so, and they were in on the scene too, the pedophilia scene. Pennsylvania, family affair. The girls were having sex from an early age with all the males of the family, father, uncles, cousins.

I guess a lot of guys must find that story exciting, because she said she had told it to like 90 young guys in that room, and they were all getting off on it. She thought most of them were just regular guys. I think they were just normal guys, but they liked the forbidden nature of it.

I realize that it was a story of molestation, but the kids were getting off on it, so it seemed less bad. Though just the same, I guess it’s not right. Anyway, I would not do it. I wouldn’t turn them in either though. The girls were apparently having fun, so why turn them in?

RL: Ever do any cam or voice cybering with underage girls?

Internet Man: Well, sort of. One time I was in this room. It was full of people, mostly teenagers, but there were a bunch of adults in there too, and even several adult women! The people in the room said a girl was naked on cam, so a lot of us went to look at her. She looked really young, but she was seriously hot too. She was naked, and she was masturbating like wild! It was cool, man!

I was like WTF. Then the people in the room said she’s only 13 years old. One guy said, “I know her! She goes to my school!” Well, she could well have been 13. But she had very full and large breasts, though they had that funny look about them? You know how girls’ breasts about 14-16 look, even if they are good sized? Sort of funny or weird in some strange way. Not quite a woman’s breasts for some reason.

She had full hair on her pussy. She was just like a woman in so many ways. But she had a very young little girl kind of face, and when she shut off the cam, she acted like a little girl in some way I can’t describe.

But to tell the truth, the show was seriously hot! LOL.

RL: Was it illegal?

Internet Man: LOL, I guess so, but there were a bunch of adults in the room too, including grown women, so what the Hell, eh? She was putting on a show for everyone of her own free will. What are they going to do? Arrest the whole room? Crazy. They would have had to arrest like 30 people, including quite a few girls and a few grown women.

But this was in a freer era. I’m very paranoid now. I don’t know what I would do if I ran across that now. I hope I don’t. Things are so weird now.

RL:  Anything else?

Internet Man: Well, I used to talk to this young girl, 14 years old, on ICQ. She was rich and lived in Venice Beach, California. Her Dad was a notorious playboy, and she lived with him. Never-ending parade of women coming in and out. She thought it was funny. She used to talk to me about her body and how it was developing. We had some interesting conversations!

She kept bugging me to send her porn to look at, so finally I sent her some. It was really hardcore stuff, way dirty, but I won’t say what it was. She thought it was sort of shocking. Cool chick, lot of fun to talk to, but we never did anything sexual.

RL:  Is any of that illegal?

Internet Man: You see, this was another era. You could send a teenage girl porn online. You could cyber with teenage girls. But now, adults are actually going down for talking dirty to teenage girls via texting and whatnot! There have been some cases. And clearly they can bust you for sending porn to a teenage girl.

And I think some guys on To Catch a Predator were even busted for talking dirty in chat to teenage girls. So anymore: You can’t talk dirty, cyber with or send porn to teenage girls online. It’s apparently all illegal now. No way am I ever doing this again, or at least I hope not.

RL: Ever see any real child porn (CP)?

Internetman: Well, you see, those rooms, they are perverted. Nothing but perverts in there of both sexes. And one thing is porn pic trading. People do pic trading all the time in there. Well, one time I was talking to this guy who was in there with his young wife. They were both perverts. The guy sends me this pic without asking, and I accept it. It’s like an older man nailing some little girl, screwing her! I look and it, and I’m like, “Whoa!” and deleted it right away.

RL: How did it look?

Internetman: Not erotic. More sick and disturbing. Like wrong. Hard to describe. It seemed like a bomb was heading right in my face from the computer ready to blow up in my face when I saw that pic. I couldn’t delete it fast enough.

Another time I met this guy in the rooms, and he was a major pervert. Young guy from San Diego, 23 years old, had a hot live-in gf, and they had sex all the time. But he also had a thing for girls around puberty age. I was getting curious, so I started talking to him.

He started sending me pics from Russia. I forget what they were exactly. Seemed to be girls about age 12 or 13. That doesn’t do much for me, but there is a “forbidden” factor about it that can be exciting. I didn’t really understand the guy’s fetish. He spent a lot of time dredging this illegal stuff up because it’s hard to find.

Guys would come to me on ICQ and say, “Pic trade?” I usually said yes because I’m a perv. One guy from Netherlands sent me CP without asking. I was mad and deleted it instantly like it was poison.

Later I got a bit curious because I came across the CP fiction stories.

RL: What are those?

Internetman: Well, they are legal! I got into that for a while because it was forbidden, so it was kind of hot. I actually jacked to some of those stories because they were exciting in some forbidden, ought-to-be-illegal kind of way. So it just became another of my zillion perversions and kinks. Later I felt guilty about jacking to those stories, and I decided I didn’t want to explore that area of sexuality.

RL: So are you a pedophile?

Internetman: Don’t think so. I’m not into that stuff, don’t want to explore it anymore, don’t want to read about, and anyway, I get off just fine on like a million other things. There’s a million other kinks, etc. I would rather explore. If you dx me pedo, you have to dx me with every other thousand kink and fetish in and out of the DSM. I don’t get off on little girls really. Like not at all, or not much anyway. Pedos are crazy for little girls. If you’re not crazy for little girls, you’re not a pedo, period.

RL: I don’t think you’re a pedo. Keep in mind that 26% of males react pretty strongly to pedo stimuli in the lab. Are 26% of all men pedos? I don’t think so. Most of them can take it or leave it. Pedo stuff is a very strong and persistent interest though, one of their main interests.

Internetman: Well, anyway, I started exploring further, and I got interested in CP. I wanted to see it, to see what all the fuss was about. So I spent like 2-3 weeks pounding away at the Net trying to find it. It is that hard to find. Finally I found a lot of it, but it was in Yahoo Groups! Back then Yahoo Groups were almost unpoliced, and there were lots of Yahoo CP Groups springing up all the time. They would pop up like mushrooms, immediately get like 8-14,000 members, then vanish into thin air. That was the MO.

RL: What guys were in the groups?

Internetman: Well, back then, you could talk to people in the groups, but Yahoo got rid of that feature. I talked to some of the guys. They seemed like regular, normal guys, just really curious. This stuff is illegal, and I honestly think the vast majority who look at it are just “curiosity seekers.” Not pedos in any way, shape or form.

One time I talked to the owner of a group.

RL: Who was he? Was he a pedo?

Internetman: A Bulgarian. I don’t think he was a pedo even 1%. What was he then? The guy was simply a criminal. He was Organized Crime. He was just doing this as a lucrative criminal venture. He said, “Here in Bulgaria, nothing is legal, nothing is illegal. Everything is legal, everything is illegal.” He was laughing the whole time.

RL: You saw the pics? How did you react?

Internetman: Yes, I did. Grown men having sex with very young girls for the most part. Well, some of it was a bit hot, because it’s like a beautiful young girl sucking a cock, say, and it seems the same as if it was a woman.

But a lot was downright disturbing and even upsetting, and I think the very idea of adults have sex with kids is dubious and ought to be illegal. A lot of kids are hurt by this. Yes, some like it, but so what? It should be illegal just because it’s weird if for no other reason. Guys who do it need to go down hard. And CP unfortunately probably needs to be illegal too. I won’t have any on my drive, I won’t mess around with any kids, and pedo stuff is not part of my fantasy life. I don’t want to do any of those things anyway though. There is some stuff kids should not be exposed to, and one of those things is sex.

I remember one pic in particular was very upsetting. I think that guy in San Diego sent me the url. It was a guy about 40 screwing this girl who was like 8.

Something was just so wrong, sick and messed up about that. The man was way too big and too old, the girl was way too young and too small. I would not say it was “sick,” but it was just very weird, disturbing and upsetting. Sort of like those sicko gore and shock videos online. It was almost traumatizing to look at it. You look at it, and the main thing you think is, “WRONG. That is so wrong.”

You can’t even put your finger on why it’s wrong, it’s just wrong in some hard-to-describe way. It’s fucked up, and it’s so fucked up, it should not even be legal. It almost seems to scream crime too. But was it “sick?” Not really. Some behavior is just fucked up, wrong, not OK, messed up. So messed up that it ought to be outright banned, and if you do it, the cops should be able to haul you off. It’s something society should not tolerate for the simple reason that it is too fucked up to exist in a decent society. OK?

RL: More or less my feelings too, though I have seen little of this stuff.

Internetman: You have seen CP?

RL: Only a few times. I used to prowl around on dirty Yahoo profiles all the time. And I found a few profiles that had CP on them as profile pics. Mostly it was young kids screwing each other, like a 9-10 year old boy and a girl the same age, but that also looks very weird and disturbing in some bizarro kind of way. Should it be illegal to do it? No idea. But pics like that should not be allowed.

I also saw some weird profile pics that were like mothers and daughters. Not sure if it was CP, but it seemed messed up. And a couple of times pic trading morons sent me pics of that crap. Like you, I was freaked out and deleted it immediately. I have seen maybe several photos of it – a few on Yahoo profiles, couple others idiots sent me.

Internetman: Oh well, so I completed my investigation!

RL: You sure did. Should CP and adult-child sex, say, adults 18+ and girls under age 13, be illegal?

Internetman: Oh Hell yeah. That stuff is so hard to find, and that’s because it is illegal. Once you make it legal, it will be everywhere, and that will be a catastrophe. And it’s a lie that it’s everywhere on the Net, simple for anyone to find. It is nearly impossible for the average surfer to accidentally run across such things.

Adult-child sex needs to be illegal, especially age 12 and below. I don’t care what excuses they have. It hurts a lot of the kids, and anyway it ought be illegal, #1, just for being weird if for no other reason.

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