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Double Homicide in Delphi, Indiana, February 13, 2017: Liberty German and Abbie Williams

Really nasty sexually-motivated double homicide of two teenage girls, one 13 and the other 14. For some background on this heartbreaking case, see here.

I like to do “sleuthing” in my part time. Although it’s gruesome, playing detective is a bit of a hobby of mine, and it is engrossing in some odd say.

I would like to throw a lot of stuff out there.

My Musings on This Case

Everybody insists that the place where the girls were found is where they were killed. Think again. Think body dump. Or how about neither body dump nor killing locale, but perhaps the place where the killer caught up with them? Or an evidence dump locale. Just because an area is roped off does not mean it’s a kill or dump site. Could just be a lot of evidence there. If am having a hard time figuring out how he carted them down to that site if it is a dump site though; this is why I feel it may be just a crime scene with evidence.

I believe that the girls were “confined” in some way. I’m not going to elaborate on that. Could mean tied up or could mean placed in some structure.

There is said to be a cabin somewhere in the back of that property hidden away. No one is talking about it, but it could be important. I believe that police raided a structure on the property. Perhaps it was this cabin. Cabin should be at least thrown in the mix.

I believe the actual murders occurred in a rather out of the way locale where it would be hard to see or hear what was going on.

I fear that the nature of this crime is quite gruesome. Just the bare facts of the crime itself are ugly enough, but I am afraid that once we learn the details, it is going to be worse. Horror movie stuff.

I believe that Libby was killed on 2-13, possibly pretty quickly, and Abby was killed (or died) or 2-14. “Or died” is important. I know this because the published obits state those dates. There is a rumor that the families chose those dates as death dates, but that would apply only to funerals, not obits. Obit info would come straight from coroner report. Therefore, coroner report had to state different death dates.

I actually do not believe that any working phones were recovered. Maybe a dead phone or maybe no phones. When the search was going on, both phones were deadAs stated by LE.

Photo of Unsub does not come from girls’ phones. Video is probably only 10 seconds long. Although there are no security trailcams in the area, I believe there may be gamecams. A gamecam video would be only 10 seconds long or so. So this is a gamecam video. But how does a gamecam video shoot the bridge?

There are claims that the photo of Abbie on the bridge shows the killer hiding below the bridge. Claim is worthless; that is just some shadow.

Unsub marginal. Drifter, bum, homeless, etc.

Probably not a crime of opportunity. He planned this at least somewhat. That is why he is armed with the gun and disguising himself.

Unsub is clearly trying to disguise himself in the photos. He is using a hat and a scarf in front of his face to do this. As stated by LE.

Talk of backpacks and duffle bags makes no sense to me.

We are making a lot of assumptions here. Everybody assumes that both girls were dead when they were found. I think we should be open to the possibility that that may not be true. As in perhaps girl(s) were near death but not dead when found. Which may account for the different dates. Libby on 13th means she died that day. Abbie on 14th I feel means she suffered until the 14th and then died on that day. Perhaps she was even barely alive when discovered.

In published UK media, grandfather who raised her made an odd statement, “I know Abbie. She put up one Hell of a fight.” This has no doubt led to a lot of speculation along the lines of, “What an odd thing to say.” He did not say ‘would have put up a fight.’ He said, ‘She did put up a fight.’ How does he know? Was he there? No idea if grandfather is a suspect, but people are probably chattering about him. But does LE think he is a suspect? Nobody knows. But I am thinking he be cleared. For one thing, his photo is much heavier than that of the Unsub. And his hair is a lot different, in bangs. However, I do think that Abbie may have put up quite a strong battle. The Unsub may have scratch marks. She may even have his DNA under her nails from the fightback.

I do not believe that LE has any known suspect in mind at this moment.

I believe they are going around questioning people who being talked about. They are probably clearing these people. I assume they are going around to all of the local RSO’s. They probably want them to come talk about the case. While there, they may search the man’s phone  and ask them to submit DNA. They are probably clearing at least some of them this way.

The raid was on the property of the old man who lives alone and owns the property where the girls were found. He is completely innocent and cleared. The huge raid there was because there were possibly multiple crime scenes there – abduction site, kill site, dump site? I know local police, Indiana SP, and FBI were all there. They stayed there a while because I believe they got some quality evidence there. Jim Logan is cleared because the poor guy had nothing to do with it.

I believe the gun obviously holstered on the right under the jacket of Unsub was used to control the girls somehow. He also got them to keep quiet somehow, maybe with the gun. However, I do not believe the gun was used to kill the girls. It would have made too much noise. Rumors that this was not a gun crime are probably correct.

Yes, the girls were murdered, and I believe they were killed brutally and horribly in such a way that a shot to the head would have been merciful. I do not believe they were strangled. It’s possible but not likely. Instead they were both killed with a hand-held weapon. This weapon is some deadly object like a knife, hammer, club, pipe or other blunt object. Basically they were either beaten to death or stabbed to death. I believe that the crime scene was a bloody and ugly mess, a real horrorshow.

This is obviously a sexually motivated offense. In other words, to put it brutally, both girls were raped, no doubt while they were still alive. This was motive. They were killed after the rapes to eliminate witnesses. I believe that Liberty may have been killed quite quickly, but she was probably raped also. The target was probably Abbie. Liberty was just in the way. He used Abbie sexually overnight. He kept her alive for this purpose. Whether he tortured Abbie or not is not known. He slit her throat hastily the next morning and made his getaway.  Death was fairly quick with knife wounds or bashings with blunt object. He stabbed or bashed Abbie the next morning when he was done with her, figured she was dead and then took off. But Liberty was probably killed soon after the abduction.

I feel he may have tied them up somehow, maybe with a rope.

Look, as a libertine, I do not care if girls this age are sexually active, ok? That means nothing to me. However, I have a feeling that at least one of the girls, probably Liberty, was sexually active, and she may have had a boyfriend, in the recent past. Boyfriend was probably bad boy, tough guy, macho guy, also a teenage boy. He was probably a young adult, maybe 20 years old. Although this is statutory rape, I think this sort of thing is quite common around  there. He probably knew her from the school. These girls were not completely innocent little girl-children like elementary school girls. They were worldly teenage girls. They were more grown up than people think.

This guy is either a local or he is intimately familiar with the area. Not just the bridge and woods area, but I mean the whole town of Delphi. He is very at home all over that whole town somehow. I doubt if he is a resident, as I feel he is a transient. But I think he has been in the Delphi area, especially around the bridge, for a few weeks. This was enough time to familiarize himself with the area. He probably survives by panhandling. Even for a transient, he may be quite belligerent and confrontational. In that sense he is stupid as he makes himself known. His clothes are probably rather dirty and he may wear them for weeks at a time. He may smell bad from not showering or washing his clothes.

I feel that this man is homeless in some way or another. I do not think he lurks in homeless camps though. He is more of a loner.

Statistically, he lives within 30 miles of the area, as this is his comfort zone. Studies show that body dumps occur on the edges of comfort zones. Killings occur within comfort zones. He may well reside within 30 miles of the area.

He’s a creepy bastard. Given his age, probably 45-early 60’s (midrange 50’s), this is not his first offense. He has done similar things before, or at least he has committed some lowly crimes before. He may well have a criminal record, but he may not be an RSO. I think this is not his first sex crime, but he may have gotten away with the priors.

This guy knew the bridge/forest area really well. He’s been there before for whatever reason and has explored the whole area. He is also quite familiar with the private property where the bodies were found. I do not know how he is familiar with that man’s property, but he knows it pretty well.

He’s going to lay low for a while. He won’t do any similar crimes in the near future. He’s not that stupid.

I doubt if he has even left the area. For some reason I think he stuck around the nearby area after he did the crimes.

LE had a presser saying that there are all sorts of people pointing fingers at POI’s on social media, but my feeling is that most of them have been cleared in some way or another.

LE is not incompetent. I feel they have been working their tails off since this case broke. They have nothing to show for it, but cops are not gods. They’re human, and LE does not always get their man. It is not so easy to solve a crime like this.

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Game/PUA: Effects of “Alpha” Behaviors on Love and Sex in Females

Juan: Alpha- from my observation that’s true when women hit 25-30. Before that TRASH is correct.

It seems to be a “shallow” thing as TRASH said.

Trash has made a number of statements about various female ethnicities and their sexual proclivities. My experiences have not matched his, but his reality is valid.

Studies consistently show that only 25-30% of women consistently reach orgasm with sexual intercourse. The rates go up to 80% with oral sex. I would say that all women like oral sex. I have given oral sex to quite a few Asian women, and they liked it just fine. Also to a few Hispanic women with the same response. The Hispanic women were pleasantly surprised that I would want to do such a  thing. With Black women, one thought it was weird, but she really got into it big time when I did it to her. For some reason, Black women think it is odd that any man would actually like to do such a thing.

Contrary to Trash’s characterization, I have found that White women can be very good fucks. Even White girls all the way down to age 14 can be really good fucks. They’re horny as Hell, and they really like to fuck from age 14 at least all the way to age 52 at least. I have no experience with females under 14 or over 52, so I can’t comment there.

Females at all ages, even teenage girls, can go at it for hours if you can keep it up. And I have had porno-style sex with quite a few White women. A White woman will do just about anything sexually if she is turned on by you and especially if she is in love with you. Sexual attraction turns on the female sex drive and love ramps it up to overdrive.

A woman in love frequently complains that she is horny all the time. She often says, “What is wrong with me? What have you done to me? Have you cast a spell on me?” I have heard this a number of times from different women and even from teenage girls. Yes, I did cast a spell on her, but it was a love spell. She’s horny all the time because she’s crazy in love and also because she is very turned on to the guy sexually.

Acting “Alpha” is great for getting women to fall nuts in love with you and turning them into nymphos who feel horny all the time and want to fuck all the time. I have no idea if my love spells work, but the women were definitely in love and they often accused me of putting a spell on them. Sometimes they even told me, “Take the spell off, dammit.”

I have also read quite a few other cases of men acting “Alpha” and getting women to fall nuts in love with them. These women also complained that they felt horny all the time.

Sexual attraction is necessary to turn on the female sex drive. “Alpha” behavior can add to this sense of attraction, but good looks really helps. Alpha -looks probably doesn’t work that great. Alpha behavior + good looks is a great ticket to wild love and crazy sex from women.

“Alpha” behavior can also create wild, head over heels love-type behavior in women. A woman this wild in love can also feel horny all the time because passionate love is an on switch for the female sex drive.

However, this wild love for “Alpha” behavior has a very unstable aspect to it. There is a lot of love-hate, screaming and yelling, wild fights, calling you back 20-30 times in an hour while cussing you out and hanging up, continuous threats, bickering, crying, fistfights, intense hatred and rage, along with a lot of wildly passionate love and all the great things that go along with that. “Alpha” behavior can also cause extreme submission in women. They often started calling me “Daddy” went they went crazy-submissive like that. In these relationships, I ended up doing a lot of incest role-play where I was Daddy and she was the teenage girl. I know you all are going to start calling me names now, so I will remind you that these roleplays were instigated by the women, not me.

I’ve never had such wild love affairs as when I started acting consciously “Alpha.” A certain amount of that was bastardy, but really it was more being not being pussy-whipped and refusing to fight back. I used to be horribly pussy-whipped and would never fight back against girlfriends for fear she would cut off the pussy supply. This did not work so well, but the relationships were a lot more stable. They also did not last that long and they were characterized by a lot of contempt coming from the women.

After I went “Alpha,” I did not so much act like a jerk who treats women like crap. Instead I started fighting back against bitch behaviors. “Shut up bitch!…Shut up you little bitch!…Fuck you!…Fuck you bitch!…” I even called them cunts quite a bit. “Shut up cunt!..Shut up you stupid cunt!…” etc etc.

The “treat them like crap” guys are right in the sense that fighting back brutally against bitch behaviors does seem to turn on a wild sex drive and a wild and crazy head over heels passionate love. But you have to be very kind and good to them when they are not bitching out. So it’s a combination of being a very kind and good man when she is being a good girl and being a real motherfucker when she is being a bad girl.

It’s almost like the way her parents treated her. As you can see in the submission and calling you “Daddy,” perhaps you are reverting her to childhood or better yet teen years when a powerful father was the source of tremendous love when she was good but also brutal coldness and cruelty when she was acting up. I have a feeling that females’ relationships with their fathers may be a lot more sexual than people think. Why else do women crumble into submission scared eyes and little girl voices and start calling you “Daddy” when faced with a dominant man? Why else do they want to do teenage girl-Daddy incest roleplays? What other explanation can there be for this?

You would think cussing women out when she is acting up would drive them away but it did not. Instead it tended to cause this wild, unstable, horny-all-the-time love affair-of-the-century behavior, albeit combined with frequent or continuous mood swings, frequent fights and a lot of hatred but little if any contempt. If you want wild, passionate love affairs with horny all the time nymphos down for anything goes porno style sex, this is apparently the ticket. On the other hand, these relationships are very wild and unstable, with continuous fights on a daily to multiple times a day basis. The bonus from that downside is the wildest love you have ever experienced. Love and hate are very close.

If you don’t want this wild, manic-depressive Hollywood movie love then you might want to try something more down to earth but more stable.

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The Old “Treat Woman Like Crap” Advice

GondwanaMan: Pumpkin Person told to me to try some sociopathy/narcissism, but it’s hard! I started reading Chateau Heartiste/Roosh V, then went outside of my apartment to try it out. First girl I tried it on, walked away. Same with the second. Then I went to a third one. Same thing.

Finally I found an elderly woman and talked down to her like she was stupid. She liked me, but I think only because she was hard of hearing and lonely. So I’ll try again tomorrow on someone else.

Personally, the last men on Earth I would read for advice on how to get women are ultra-misogynists and narcissist/sociopaths Chateau Heartiste and Roosh V. I suppose that technique could work if you are a real scumbag. Roosh’s advice seems to be mostly a How to Date Rape Women and Get Away with It manual. And Roosh is indeed a date rapist. That’s for sure. And boy does he hate women.

You hear a lot of players and womanizers give precisely this advice on how to get women and deal with them. They claim it works fantastic. Some of the worse ones even say that they beat and hit women, and this works wonders. None of this has ever made the tiniest bit of sense to me, and I’m pretty experienced with women.

As a man who has done quite well with women in his life, I would say that acting like a sociopath/narcissist in the sense you are talking about is just not going to work. I’ve never gotten women by talking down to them like they are idiots. Lots of players say the secret to women is to treat them like shit, but I’ve had many girlfriends, and that’s never worked for me. I don’t get it. How to guys treat women like shit and get away with it?

As it is, women in my life are always accusing me of insulting them or not caring about them or being mean or hurting their feelings. That is, being an asshole. However, I am generally not even trying to do that! I actually try very hard not to insult women or put them down too much, but it seems like women are paranoid and always reading insults into places where they are not intended. To the extent that I have treated women poorly in this way, albeit usually unintentionally, it’s never been anything but a disaster. I don’t get it. How do misogynists get women? How does insulting a woman get you laid? How does talking down to a woman make her want to go out with you?

Color me mystified.

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“The Story of an Omega,” by Anonymous

I must say, this is one of the saddest stories I have ever read. It’s literally heartbreaking. I also think this fellow is a fine writer. And that’s a compliment coming from me because I don’t like most writers. You can be assured that if I tell you you are a good writer, you are definitely good. He’s such a good writer that this heartbreaking story is actually beautiful. As we all know, some of the best literature ever written is terribly sad. The saddest story on Earth can also be beautiful in the hands of a literary master. There is a cold beauty in most things on Earth, even the saddest and ugliest things, if the touch of great art is applied to them.

There are some problems with the prose below, in particular switching back and forth between 1st and 2nd person, but it’s nothing a good editor couldn’t fix up. It did require a bit of an edit but more from grammar, punctuation and spelling and a bit for awkward phraseology. But I didn’t change the voice. As you might guess when reading this, the author is an Indian-American man.

The Story of an Omega

by Anonymous

Intro

Below is a timeline of my life as an Incel. This is going to be a long and depressing read. However, I want to make it clear to anyone that reads this – don’t be so quick to compare yourself to me. Some guys who are only 5’8 claim that their shortness in statue causes them to be Forever Alone (FA). I am only 5’4, and my height is probably only my seventh biggest problem. Even while I’m not the shortest guy ever at 5’4, my hunchback makes me appear 5’0.

I’m short for even a short guy, and yet I was not until I was in my 30’s before I realized my height was even a problem. Mainly that was due to the fact I was focusing on my bigger problems such as my limp, hunchback, clawed hands, ugly face, speech impediment and otherwise weird voice, and learning disabilities. Then after factoring in my height, you can also consider my shattered confidence, social awkwardness, poor sense of humor, very bad teeth and that I am now overweight. Most guys would struggle to get a girl with only two or three of those problems. It’s hard to believe that guy could only be 5’4 and walk with a limp and would be only scratching the surface of his problems.

Recently I have been trying to calculate a rate of girls that would be willing to date me. Perhaps after seeing my face, only 1/20 girls would date me. Of those girls, only 1/40 would date me because of my height. Then after factoring in the deformity of my body, maybe only 1/50 of the remaining girls would date me. Of those, maybe only 1/30 would date me because of my personality. And of that, maybe only 1/10 would date me because of other reasons such as my voice or my teeth.

It is possible that some girls who could look past my height would also look past my deformities, but if not, taking all this into account would mean only .8 of every million girls would date me. That means in an entire country of about 75 million women who are between the ages of 18-65, there would be only about 60 girls that would date me.

Consider how bad that is. I have an unattractive friend. I would say 85% of girls would never date him. If we both decided to get girlfriends and I could go after any girl in the country and he could only go after girls from our small commuter college, he would still be 25X more likely to get a girl than I would. And this isn’t a popular guy at all.

Think about it another way. Let’s say that because of my face, I fall in the bottom 10% of male attractiveness. Because of my height, I am in the bottom 3%. Because of the disability, I am in the bottom 5%. Based on personality issues, I am in the bottom 15%. Finally because of other matters, I am in the bottom 20%. Put it all together, and I am in the bottom .0004%. That means that if you paired me up against another guy and asked the average girl which guy was more attractive, I would lose 220,500 times in a row. After winning one match, I would lose another 220,500.

This is what life is like for this kind of person…

3rd Grade: Problem Free and Already Left Out

This is where it starts. In third grade, before you have any real problems, you suddenly find yourself paying attention to girls. You notice the popular kids have girls approaching them on behalf of other girls. A lot of “he said, she said” games are played. You can’t help but notice you seem to be left out of these games. No big deal, a lot of guys are. No need to worry. Although you do feel a little jealous.

4th–6th Grade: The Beginnings of Frustration

The “he said, she said” games have stopped, and now the popular kids are hanging out with the girls they like. You watch in jealousy as they share their first kisses. Eventually more guys start getting girlfriends. By sixth grade, it seems like half of guys have girlfriends and half don’t. You are disappointed at being in the bottom half. You secretly wonder what it feels like to kiss a pretty girl, and hope you won’t have to wait too long. But you are socially awkward and don’t know how to make the first move. And the girls don’t care to pursue you either.

7th Grade: Things Become Clear

This is when lines start to be drawn and the losers exposed. By seventh grade, 80% of guys have girlfriends. Only the bottom 20% don’t. Even though you want a girlfriend, you keep hoping for at least an above average-looking girl for validation purposes. At this point, you are clueless about how overly-inflated your ego is. Although any thought of being a popular kid has clearly gone down the drain. You don’t give up yet on the pretty girls, but you are starting to realize the competition is fierce. You’re shorter than everyone, have a weird voice, an unattractive face, and a shy and awkward personality. But you keep hoping somehow you will get lucky.

8th–9th Grade: The Onset of Physical Deformity

By 8th grade, the percentage of guys without girlfriends has fallen to about 5%. That’s when something amazing happens, a girl actually says hello to you. Because you never get any female attention, you blow it out of proportion. Four years after guys and girls start dating, you think you are finally going to get a girlfriend. One of the last in your grades to do so. But it turns out she doesn’t like you either! When you look back at that time now, you can’t believe you had only endured about 1/5 of the time you would continue to endure not having a girlfriend.

Only after this disappointment does life deliver another blow. While all the other boys experiences manly growth spurts, not only do you stay the same in height, but you also develop a hunchback and a limp. In fact, everyone got taller, but you appear to have gotten shorter. This opens a new world of rejection. Instead of getting a girlfriend, you start to get bullied.

For Valentine’s Day you get a card from a ‘secret admirer’. As you get your hopes up, the class bursts out in laughter, and you realize it is from a group of guys playing a joke. Even your female teacher has slight smirk on her face. As girls walk by, the bullies announce to them that “he has a crush on you”. The shrieks and looks of horror always get a big chuckle. You can’t get a girl to give you the time of the day. Other female teachers who were previously nice to you act annoyed every time you ask a question or try to talk to them. Every day you are told you are a gimp who no girl likes.

Sharing kisses are a thing of the past. While your desire for just one small peck on the lips goes unmet, couples are making out and fondling body parts. Your ego plummets knowing you still haven’t kissed a girl while listening to the majority of other guys talking about fondling girls’ breasts.

10th–12th Grade: Last Place

Now everybody has a girlfriend. Everyone but you. One by one, all your friends get girlfriends as well. While guys and girls go through periods of being in relationships and being single, you are the only one who has never had a girlfriend. There are a few girls left that you consider asking out, but all the guys would make fun of you if you dated them. You decide to endure. You will soon go to college and have a fresh start. You will certainly meet an acceptable girl there, so there is no reason to be the only guy who asks out the very, very few girls who no other guy will date. You can’t be that bad.

You have no idea how over your head you really are. It will only be years later when you realize even those girls would have just said no as well. Not only do you graduate as the only virgin in your grade, you still haven’t kissed a girl. And everyone knows it. Still, you remember having high hopes that high school was a fluke and college will be different.

It certainly doesn’t appear that it is going to be any different that summer. While working at McDonald’s one day, a couple of co-workers start asking if the others have had sex with their girlfriends. Of course they all have. The one girl in the room says she can’t even talk about sex with you in the room.

Early College: Failing at School

Welcome to the big leagues. Having sex isn’t a rumor anymore, it is happening left and right. You will never forget the day you see a guy and girl step out of the shower together. You felt like a 10 year old in the presence of sexual beasts. Here you are, still looking for your first kiss, and two wet, towel-covered bodies stumble out of the stall with content smiles on their faces. On another night, you walk aimlessly around the campus all night long as your roommate and all your neighbors have fun with their girlfriends. All around you are couples.

You continue to fail miserably with the opposite sex. Day after day, you search for that special girl, but she is nowhere to be found. Not in the dorms, the café, any of the classrooms, the library, or the student union. Nowhere off campus either. You get rejected by every girl you approach. There are even girls who flee the scene when you try approaching them. Without saying anything, they literally pack their belongings and hurry away. For every 500 girls that seem to be immediately repulsed by you, there may be 1-2 who act nice because they feel sorry for you. Often this leads to confusion where you think they like you. When they find out how you feel about them, they make every attempt to avoid you.

It doesn’t matter who you find yourself approaching, they aren’t interested. At first you make the mistake of pursuing the pretty girls again, thinking that like a fairy tale, things will be different here. No such luck. For the second time, you go through the proceedings: rejection from hot girls, then pretty ones, then above average, then average, then below average. Soon it’s just you and the very unattractive ones all over again.

Making it even worse are the Chads. The kind of attention they get is mind-boggling. You even see some lucky Chads eating or studying with several girls. The lucky SOB has an entire group of girls all to himself, while you can’t get a single one to even give you the time of the day. As you are eating alone, you can’t stop staring at the guy two tables down laughing it up with three cute girls. It’s as if you worship and despise him at the same exact time.

While working at the gas station one day, you hit a new low. The door opens and a total stud walks in. Great looking face with a bodybuilder’s profile. You watch him confidentially walk up to your female co-worker whose entire body starts trembling. You can tell how bad she wants to talk to him if only she still had her voice. That is when an older woman walks in. She takes a few steps towards the back of the store, but upon seeing him, immediately changes her direction and approaches him from behind.

Following that, her daughter walks in. As her eyes dart immediately to the guy, she trips over her own feet and falls flat on her face! She picks herself up and skips over to join her mother standing right behind the guy. Each of them tries to flirt with him, each blurt of admiration becoming more desperate than the one before. You try to hold back tears watching it all.

When they find out they aren’t being successful, they start picking on you, hoping it will make them look cool. The slight smile on the guy’s face encourages them to continue. It doesn’t end there. Because you am trying to appeal to both the guy and the girls, you start pretending to laugh at their jokes. So you have a total Chad instigating three girls to take shots at you while you start to take shots at yourself. It was like we all came under his spell.

You join a local community group. You can’t help but think it’s your imagination that all the older, married women seem to despise you from the minute you meet them. Instead of being happy to see you, they look upset every time you stroll in the room. Nowadays, you can’t help but think that even back then, they already knew the struggles you were having and would continue to have with women.

Even at a relatively young age and from a relatively short time of sizing you up, they have your life’s destiny all figured out. Looking back, you wish you could have judged the situation as clearly as they saw it. Instead you will continue to go through years of anger, resentment, and confusion. Only to end up exactly where they said you would 15 years ago.

But we’ll get to that.

Mid-College: The Odd Man Out Again

But long before that, by some stroke of luck, there are 12 single guys in this group and 16 single girls. A few of the girls are extremely pretty. Most are above average. A few are unattractive. One is exactly like you – not attractive, learning disabled, not funny, socially awkward, kind of bitter, although not deformed.

The girls never pay you any attention. Like the older women, you get dirty looks from them. If you pass by them, they literally look right through you. And to make matters worse, most of the guys are quite nice looking. One in particular would qualify as the Alpha of any group. Every time you hang out with him, he gets the attention of countless girls. Things happen to him that would never happen to you, such as female cashiers giving him discounts on merchandise.

There is only one girl in your entire life you somehow were lucky enough to get stuck in the Friendzone with. For years, you have been unsuccessfully trying to appeal to her. One day when you are with him, you run into her. You can tell she is instantly attracted to him. The five minute conversation that follows is really a conversation between him and her. You try to protect the ground you’ve built with this girl and compete for her attention. But at this point, every word you say to her goes in one ear and out the other. That five minute conversation was all it took for him to get a Facebook friend request from her later that day with a flirty message and a dinner invitation. Eventually he becomes the first guy among your group to get married. And when he does, he marries a blond goddess.

While he is clearly the crème de la crop, the other guys have it pretty good as well. Every time you are out in public, you have to watch somebody else getting female attention. At a wedding, you sit next to the second most desirable guy. Dozens of females from married moms to young teens walk by taking quick glances at him and smiling. The waitress tells him he’s adorable. Another one serves the cake and gives him a big, flirty smile, then walks away, forgetting to serve you any. This is the wedding where you also find out he’s dating the girl you like.

Even the second least desirable guy from the beginning of this story gets attention you couldn’t even dream of. At a restaurant one time you see a cute girl giggling over him while her friends playfully tease her about him. Soon another one of the guys gets married, then another, and another, and so on. The girls that they marry are heart-melting beautiful as well. It’s like experiencing your younger years all over again, when you watched guy after guy getting girlfriends.

Your unattractive friend marries a girl from out of state. She quickly becomes friends with everyone. By the time of their wedding, you have lost touch with him. When he introduces you to her, the girl barely looks at you. She barely acknowledges any of your questions/comments. Later on, you try to connect with her on Facebook, like all the other guys do. You are the only one she rejects. Watching 12 straight guys get married before you is embarrassing enough.

But it’s what happens next that wrecks you. There seems to be an emphasis on only starting relationships with people in that group. So by the time it is just you and four girls left, maybe there is still hope, right? Wrong. The first girl also marries someone from out-of-state. She just can’t bring herself to like you. The second moves away and ultimately gets married. You start to panic as you watch the amount of available girls dwindle down from 16 to only two. As you build up the nerve to attempt to court the more desirable of the two, a new guy comes out of nowhere and begins a relationship with her. The fact that you knew her for years and he only just met her doesn’t matter. He’s the one she wants.

Finally, it’s just you and the one exactly like you that is left. She was the only one you and every other guy wasn’t interested in. As someone who always wanted a pretty girl, this is not what you were hoping for, in fact the least attractive girls in high school would have blown her away. Physically, she is as plain as a girl could be. Dry, thin hair with no elasticity. Pale acne skin. Poor asymmetry. Very short at 4’8 and the body of a 10 year old boy.

When thinking she could be the one, it made you feel attracted to just about every other girl out there. Any girl of any age with any curves at all becomes a sex symbol to you. Personality-wise, she was cold, judgmental, and cynical. She was exactly the type of girl you weren’t interested in, but it was starting to seem she was your only chance. Wrong again. She doesn’t like you either!

For a while you watch in angry confusion as she seems more content being alone than being with you. Then you remember how little you have going for you. After all, she may be in the bottom 1%, but even in that very low class, she still has thousands of guys in our hometown alone to choose from before you. Actually even more than that, considering guys are constantly down-dating. She is a 2/10 who will likely score a 3/10. You are a bottom of the barrel 1/10 who can’t go any lower. Then there is always the option of her dating long-distance. In other words, even with her, you never stood a chance. And her time will come soon enough. It’s official, rejected by another 16 girls.

Adding insult to injury, the older women could seem to care less that you were having a hard time. In fact, they even seem amused by it. You can’t tell you how many “Sucks to be you” looks you received from them.

But it doesn’t end there. When you met these women, their daughters were merely toddlers. As time progressed, they became the first girls you could ever talk to in your entire life. Of course it goes without saying that you never remotely considered anything sexual to do with them at that age.

But as time goes on, they enter their teens and start becoming ‘guy-conscious’. That is when they stop talking to you. Several of them even become cute. One of them even develops into a girl that is downright gorgeous. She matures so quickly that you constantly must remind yourself how young she still is. Being that she is still in her teens, you fight the temptation to look at her. One day, maybe out of frustration and loneliness, curiosity kills the cat, and you can’t help but wander over to her Facebook profile for a quick glance.

You are shocked to see that she is friends with everyone but you. As you go to another young girl’s profile, you see the same thing. You keep going and realize they are all friends with everyone but you. It’s pretty clear that now that even they consider you to be a loser. First it was the moms, then the girls your age, and now the daughters. Rejected by three straight generations of females.

Late College: Rejected by Everyone!

Outside of the group, you continue to get rejected left and right. In pure panic, you start asking out anybody and everybody. But every direction you turn, it’s just more rejection. Ethnic girls aren’t interested. Goth girls, emo girls, and tomboys aren’t interested. Older women and single moms aren’t interested. You get rejected by tall and short girls, funny and boring girls, smart and dumb girls, classy and trashy girls, city and country girls, and outgoing and quiet girls.

As other guys are dating hot young girls, you are visiting gas stations to get rejected by 40-year old-Indian women. Fat, ugly girls with bad personalities reject you. You would think handicapped girls would be willing to give you a try. But you get shot down by them as well! Each rejection causes deeper depression and desperation, which only causes you to act even stranger around the opposite sex. You scoff at the memory of not pursuing those unattractive girls from high school. Except when you look them up on Facebook, their 3/10 boyfriends are still taller, stronger, better looking, and more successful than you are.

You still remember the day you gave up on White girls and turned your attention to Indian girls. Another unattractive friend tells you he had an Indian girl begging to sleep with him. This is perfect! While most White guys don’t care about them, you have always considered them to be cute. And with you forgetting the White girls, they become even more attractive. Another nice thing that since they are the race that remains the most separated from American culture, you can almost see pursuing them as leaving this sick, twisted world behind and moving into a whole new world.

Indian women who are rich are like goddesses to you. When you see a good-looking, older, wealthy Indian woman, you go crazy for her. In your city, the wealthiest couple is an Indian couple whom one of the local colleges is named after.

You start to have fantasies of being with her which soon spiral out of control. Getting her would be the ultimate revenge. The couple own the biggest house in the city. A mansion buried deep in the woods. From Google Maps, you can see a swimming pool out back. The greatest thing ever would be if she invited you and a couple of her friends over one day while her husband was away on business. The five of us would spend a lazy Saturday afternoon playing with each other in the pool. Why bother going out on a date with some girl when you are hanging out at a mansion with four beautiful Indian women.

Of course the fantasy never comes true. Instead, every Middle Eastern girl you approach shoots you down as well. One day you spend the entire day driving from gas station to gas station only to get rejected by 47 straight Indian women and drive home empty-handed. You give up on Indian girls as well.

The Latina girls are next. Followed by the Black girls. And then finally the Asians.

In a world that is becoming more and more divided, it seems like the only thing they all agree on is that you are not the guy for them.

You finally graduate college at the age of 28. All your friends and companions are married. Many of them are raising families. Like an elementary school student, you still have not even kissed a girl. In fact, you’re still hoping to hold hands with one. Hell, you wouldn’t even mind playing the “he said, she said” games of 3rd grade at this point.

But even that is out of your league.

Your First Job: Despised Co-Worker

As you graduate college and get your first job, you discover it will continue to be a re-experience of things you’ve already been through. It seems like everything you do either upsets or annoys some girl. They regard you as stupid, lazy, ugly, and dishonest even though you don’t do anything differently than the rest of the guys. You even get blamed for other people’s mistakes. Girls constantly invite the whole department to eat lunch with them, but they keep “forgetting” to invite you. You feel like the biggest pile of trash.

Out of confusion and denial, you start bending over backwards for the girls who just rejected you. You offer to do work for them and stay late while they go home early. You don’t even get a thank you. You shower one girl with gifts, bringing in lunches for her, giving her compliment after compliment, to no avail. You finally realize how pathetic you are the day you win a sporting polo shirt in a company contest. You tell the girl you never plan on wearing it, so you offer it to her.; But upon taking it, she gives it to her boyfriend. Without realizing it, you just gave your crush’s Chad boyfriend a free shirt.

One girl there is your age. She is also a part-time novelist who churns out romance novels on a regular basis. She is your age, not very good looking, a helpless romantic, and unhappily single. Could you be the man for her? No, but the chubby, bald 50-year-old guy who is in a lower position than you can. As they start dating, you swear you could go insane.

On top of that, word gets around, and soon enough, even girls that work in different buildings that have never met you regard you as a loser and make jokes about you.

Giving Up: Rock Bottom

Now there is only one place left to turn…the ghetto. So you spend entire days into the wee hours of the morning aimlessly driving down the ghetto streets looking for a girl. Still, you are determined not to visit a prostitute. You think a regular ghetto girl would do the job just fine. After all, you have been rejected by everyone else. There’s only one problem. The ghetto girls know you have already been rejected by everyone else. And they don’t want middle-class rejection; that is almost an insult to them.

For the first time, you begin to ponder just how bad it is. You have absolutely zero sexual market value. Not only is there not a single redeeming quality about you, you come in last place in every category. You aren’t an OK looking guy with a short, weak body. Or a bad-looking guy with just an OK body. You are last place in face, last place in height, last place in body, last place in personality, last place in intelligence, last place, last place, last place! As irresistible as girls are to you, you are equally repulsive to them. There are four billion girls on this planet, and you mean diddly squat to every single last one of them.

You start developing physical and mental health issues. You get so depressed from always going to bed alone that you can barely sleep. At the same time, you get angry, bitter, paranoid, obsessive, and delusional. For a short period of time, you actually fool yourself into believing that you are so desired by the opposite sex that their rejection is caused by a fear of them getting hurt by you. You fool yourself into thinking every girl has the hots for you and is so intimidated that they immediately keep their distance.

That changes one day when you are walking through the grocery store. You see a teenage boy walking around with his cute, already-busty girlfriend and her mom. They are walking in your direction. You are so desperate that it doesn’t matter that she is 15 years younger than you. You can’t help but wish she was your girlfriend. At about 20 feet in the distance, it happens. Right in the middle of the grocery store, the young boy buries his face in the girl’s breasts and motorboats her. The girl lets out a little yelp followed by laughter. Even her mom smiles at the sight of it. The first thing that happens is that you jump 10 feet backwards in shock.

Then you stand there frozen as tears come to your eyes. Watching a teenage boy motorboat a girl in public while you have never touched one nearly makes you break down crying. As they continue to walk past you, you have to say something. You want to ask the boy how he pulled that off. You want to beg the girl to let you do it to her too. You want to ask the mom if she really smiled when he did it. But all you can do as they walk past is let out a “Hhhhmmmppphhh”. All three of them look at you. The girl looks at you with a mix of amusement and disdain. The boy smiles smugly. The mom looks at you with disgust. They can all see the sexual frustration in your eyes.

“Get lost, weirdo,” the mom says.

The three of them snicker and keep walking. It finally hits you. Girls aren’t intimidated by you, they can take one look at you and instantly tell that you, a grown man, have less sexual experience than an average 12-year-old. They can tell how frustrated and desperate you feel. They can tell that you have been rejected again and again and again and again. They can tell that at every stage of your life, girls have never wanted you. They know that years of hopelessness will continue to fly on by.

Worst of all, they can tell that you feel like a mouse. As a grown man jealously watching a young boy bury his face in a girls breasts while being twice his age, you’ve never gotten a girl to touch you anywhere for any amount of time. At that minute, denial comes crashing down, and it becomes crystal clear to all four people standing there think that you are a helpless loser. And the two girls hate you with a passion for it.

By now, you can be assured it is a hopeless situation. But what happens next causes you to hit rock bottom.

First, you visit an Asian massage parlor and get denied service. The two Asian girls keep saying over and over, “No, no, you leave. You leave, no.” You you walk back to your car, open the door, get inside and scream.

You drive home and take another detour through the ghetto. A busty, blond girl catches your eye. You drive past her several times. From the way she is walking around, she must be a hooker. But at this point, you don’t care. She sits down at a bus stop. You park your car around the corner and sit down next to her.

She mutters something under her breath.

“Were you talking to me?”

“No, I am on the phone with someone”.

But the phone looks like it’s off. She gets up and keeps walking down the street. She “hangs up” after only 15 steps. You’re too embarrassed to follow.

The next night you see the same girl. As you drive past once, she quickly looks away; it’s enough to embarrass you to keep driving for a second. You drive past a second time, but once again she pretends to get a phone call. Two minutes later, you drive by a third time. You see her from a distance. You see her point at something. You look, but there’s nothing there, and when you look back, you can’t find her. Only after a safe distance, do you see her in your review mirror emerging from behind a couple of trash cans. How the hell does this girl keep escaping you? Ten minutes later she sees you about to drive past a fourth time. She quickly turns a corner and disappears into thin air.

When you see her the next night, she looks stunning, wearing a skintight yellow dress exposing an amazing amount of cleavage. You have to talk to her! First drive by, she grabs the arm of somebody walking right in front of her and pretends to be walking with him. The minute you are out of sight, she lets go and walks away from him. In the next drive-by, you position yourself just right so that she has to talk to you. You talk for about a minute, and she even thanks you when complimenting her dress. Not only that, but she even fixes her top right in front of you and smiles.

You ask her if she would like a ride. She says she has to meet a friend real quick but to wait here and she would be back in about 20 minutes.

“OK, great!” The previous couple of nights must have been some kind of misunderstanding. She is sure nice to you now – even tracing her cleavage with her fingers! “She was probably just playing hard to get,” you laugh.

You always said you never wanted a hooker. But at this point, what options do you have? Besides, that girl is great looking. The first thing you are going to do is motorboat her like the boy in the store. You can’t wait to have your mouth between those soft-looking, perfectly rounded breasts. After 20 minutes, she has not returned. After another 20 minutes, you are fighting the feeling of disappointment. After another 20 minutes, you are down in the dumps. Finally after an hour and a half, you give up. She played you for a fool!

The next night is when it all falls apart.

First drive by:

As you approach, she raises her arm, “Taxi!” Of course there is no taxi.

The second time works better. You stop her and ask why she never came back.

“Well, my friend needed me.”

“No problem, at least you’re here now.”

“Well, I need to walk to the store and get groceries.”

“Let me give you a lift then.”

“No, I need the exercise.”

“What are you talking about? You look amazing. Then can I at least come with you; I’ll pay for your groceries.”

“No, that’s OK.”

“Can I meet you after you shop?”

“I don’t feel like staying up too late.”

“Well, maybe you can give me your number and I can call you.”

“My phone broke, sorry.”

“Look, what do I have to do? You keep blowing me off.”

“Well, maybe there is a reason,” she replies hastily.

And that is the comment that ends it.

You drive away in defeat. Of course she never ends up going to the store. You have finally found your place in the male hierarchy. Even with money, girls still don’t want you.

That is when you realize you will never have sex.

Eventually you get to the point where you can’t even fantasize about having sex anymore. You used to jerk off to the thought of having sex with a pretty girl. Now the only thing that arouses you is the fantasy of Muscle-man Chad engaging in a steamy mother-daughter threesome or Ghetto Chad standing proud in a sea of ghetto Black and White girls. You even get aroused at the thought of the busty, blond hooker using every trick in the book to deflect your every pickup attempt.

And that is where you stand.

Poor mental health; poor physical health. Hated and despised by everyone. Wanted by no one. It doesn’t matter what age, race, personality type, attractiveness level, part of the world, intelligence level, or social status the girl is. If you are bottom .0004%, she can do better. Even girls in the bottom .0004% themselves, if there are any, will wait in line for someone better. A girl would rather be fifth in line than be with you. If given the choice, she would rather be the fourth or fifth wheel in an all-girl, one-guy orgy than give you the time of the day.

You become so awkward that all you can do is longingly stare at girls as you walk by them hoping one of them will talk to you. But this only propels them away even faster. Every girl you see is a girl you can’t have. You can’t even tell how old girls are anymore. You can’t tell if a girl is two years younger than you or 15 years younger. You desperately seek attention, flitting from fat 50-year-old women to young teenage girls. But you are invisible to everyone.

This is the life of a loser.

Your teens were difficult. Your 20’s were a nightmare. Your 30’s are turning into Hell on earth.

And you realize you are only halfway done.

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What Is Masculinity in US Culture?

Jason Y: Generally, I would disagree with crying and find it unmanly. Nonetheless, I think those obsessed with masculinity, honor culture on the level of Chuck Norris etc.. are masking insecurity. But hey, we all go thru karate phases etc.. growing up. At some point, though, it begins to seem idiotic.

No they aren’t. Those guys are the most secure about their masculinity of all.

Want to get along with them? Real simple. Just mirror their behaviors somewhat and abide by their codes of ethics and behavior. They really do not require much, and it is surprisingly easy to get even the macho-est guys to respect you.

Guys don’t really care too much about how you live your life. I had women tell me, “Oh masculinity is courage or honor or dignity or work ethic or grace under pressure or bla bla this or that,” but really it’s not any of that. These women were shocked when I said all you have to do is walk, talk, sit, stand, hold your coffee cup, move your limbs, and have mannerisms in the proper way. There is also an emotional code you should conform to but that’s not too hard. There is also a behavioral and ethical code which is about how you are supposed to act and what you are supposed to say in any given circumstances.

The women were stunned, “You mean all you have to do to be a man is display certain mannerisms and behaviors, tone of voice, etc.”

That’s it. Masculinity in the US is more of a talk the talk thing than a walk the walk thing. It’s all about a certain type of display. You engage in that display and you are pretty much in. Not much else is required. You ought to be heterosexual. Masculine men don’t like faggots too much. They may accept them, but they don’t want them in their club. Nor are faggoty straight men welcome. That gay stuff is just not ok. It might help if you can get laid too. Even better yet if you can pull hot women. If you are straight, get laid and pull hot chicks a lot of masculine guys will give you a break on all sorts of other things.

There are a few other things. Don’t be a flake. That means emotional. Don’t be too emotional. In fact, you might not even be able to be very emotional at all. Masculine men don’t seem to like much emotional display, especially negative emotion. They don’t even like anger too much. Too much anger looks scary and it looks like you don’t have your shit together. Also you seem like a “kook” or a “nut” – someone who is going around looking for fights. Believe it or not, that is very unacceptable in masculine culture.

Masculine men actually spend a good part of their time toning down their anger, ignoring it, burying it, displacing it, etc. Men are so violent and dangerous that any proper functioning male society has to have rules that call for mass tamping down of the anger most if not all of the time. Once you loosen those controls and let men get as angry as they want to anytime they want to, they will start fighting.

And fights among men are just too ugly. They get physical almost immediately because words lead to fists very fast among men. And physical fights among men are not ok at all because men are so strong, so dangerous and with such potential for extreme violence that there is almost no such thing as a simple fistfight that is guaranteed to leave it at that. Even a simple shouting much or God forbid a fistfight can escalate very quickly into dangerous, harmful or even deadly violence.

This is why when  you see a lot of men together, one thing you will notice is that they are actually going to extreme lengths to keep any fights from breaking out. This leads to a lot of insincerity, men pretending to like men they don’t even like, and a lot of BS talk like endless jokes or talk about sex, sports or other meaningless subjects. All of those stupid jokes and pussy talk has one main purpose – to keep these men gathered here from killing each other!

If any sort of hassle or fight breaks out, a lot of men will dive in quickly to break it up. Even arguments get shut down by others very fast. The reason is because all men know how violent and dangerous men are so even arguments can blow out of control very fast. And most men want to minimize violence in their lives as much as possible. Most men have dealt with male on male violence and most have figured out that it’s not a pretty picture. It’s not harmless good fun. It’s scary as hell and most men are very much afraid of the violent potential of other men. Men who do not fear such things usually end up dead or in prison at a pretty early age.

Women actually display far more anger and violence than men, but in women the rage and violence is almost all verbal and emotional. It does not often go physical and even when it does, no one gets hurt because women are too weak and wimpy to fight well. This is actually a good thing because if women were as physically dangerous as men, the world would be at least twice or more as violent and dangerous as it is now and you would not want to live in that world. Every time I hear a man bitching about women, I say, “Sure they’re nuts, but that’s because they’re not like us. You really want to live in a world where all the women act like men? Living in a world where 50% of the population is men is bad enough.”

I would also say that gay men are much more violent and angry than straight men, but once again, it is mostly channeled into a lot of verbal aggression, bitchiness, bitch-outs, temper tantrums, jumping up and down, screaming and yelling, etc. Yes, you heard me right. When gay men get angry, they act exactly like an angry woman! It’s pretty easy to take because a man having a womanly bitch-out is more comical than infuriating.

People do not give men enough credit for the tremendous efforts they go through to keep the peace. Men are probably 1% as violent as they would like to be, or even less. That’s how repressed our rage and violence is. You take those controls off, and you get Iraq, Syria or Afghanistan real fast.

Don’t be nervous. Men hate nervousness. It is a feminine quality.

Don’t be depressed. If you are, hide it, dammit. Lie and say you’re not. Drink. Do something else instead. Anything. Men really hate depressed men. It’s unbelievably pussy. And women don’t like depressed men either. Actually, they hate them with a ferocity that must be seen to be believed.

Know the rules. Don’t break the rules and say or do stupid shit. That’s being a flake, a kook, a weirdo or an idiot.

Keep the gay stuff out. Homosexuality is out among masculine men. That’s the one place no one wants to go. You can’t even talk about it very much. Homosexuality is the turd in the punchbowl at any gathering of masculine men. Not only can you not do such things, but you cannot even think such things. A man giving off gay vibes like he’s turned on by other guys will see those vibes get picked up very fast and other men will start avoiding him. He may be asked to leave the gathering. Why? He’s the turd in the punchbowl. He’s ruining the whole gathering with his stupid faggy BS.

It might help if you worked. Men don’t like bums too much. You can’t work too hard to please other men. In fact, if you work more than one job or more than 40 hours a week, you will earn immense respect from other men for some reason. Workaholism is rewarded.

Don’t leech. Men don’t like leeches. If you do leech, lie and say you don’t. It’s not masculine to live off social services.

Don’t have a woman who openly ridicules you in public. If she ever does that, get in her face and say, “Shut up bitch!” It doesn’t matter who hears you or how shocked other people are. Nothing will happen. And you will earn brownie points for standing up to the bitch. Men don’t like pussy-whipped idiots who let their women push them around and bitch them out. Just having her do this is not bad in itself. What’s bad is if you puss out like a little girl, act submissive and hurt and tell her to stop in some whiny,  high-pitched girly voice. It’s disgusting to just sit there and take it like a pussy.

You have to either fight back against the bitch or act cold and mean towards her. If you are in say a restaurant and your girlfriend is bitching you out in public, people might start giving you funny looks. I remember older Mexican men looking at me with disgust when that happened to me. You need to have serious consequences for that behavior. If that happens, tell her to shut up and then stand up and say, “I am leaving until you stop being such a bitch.” Go outside. Go sit in your car. If it’s your car, you can even ask when she will be done and tell her you will come back and get her when she’s done. Or if you have not ordered yet, tell her you are leaving and she’s either coming with you or taking a taxi home.

It’s not so much that it is humiliating to have your woman bitch you out in public. It’s more the reaction of the people around you. Some other people will be disgusted by her bitch-out and their attitude will be that you are a big fat pussy girly-boy who cannot control his woman. You lose a lot of respect from those people and their respect is important.

It’s not real difficult to get along with masculine men. Just follow some basic rules, be very careful about every little thing you say and do, and everything should go smoothly. Most such guys want to like you. They would much rather like you than hate you. If you act in a likable and proper way, they are more than happy to have you as one of them.

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The Masculine Men’s Club – An Open Membership Society

Jason Y: That sounds about right. If you’re in the company of rednecks or hypermasculine douchebags, then obviously they’re not tolerating any androgyny.

Men are very good at seeing masculinity in other men. Women are just idiots about this stuff.

Just my experience. It’s been women who have been telling me that I am not masculine enough. Guys, generally speaking, don’t say that to me. Even rough, tough, macho, redneck guys seem to accept me on some weird level.

I finally figured out that they can see the masculine side in me, and that it is extremely strong, about as strong as theirs. So while there is this weird feminine stuff going on with me too, at the same time, I know all of the hypermasculine codes, behavioral mandates, ways of moving, walking, sitting, standing, expression, proper emotions, tone of voice, muscle tone, along with all the myriad masculine social codes, etc. For instance, my feelings are very, very controlled. They see the masculine side, and they think, “Ok, grudging acceptance.” They see the feminine stuff, and they figure that the masculine side pretty much cancels that out or makes it so it’s not so important.

The big lie is that hypermasculine men hate feminine behavior. They don’t. They think it’s weird, and they don’t understand it, but they don’t hate it. What they do hate though is a lack of masculine behavior. That’s what they really hate. If you can mirror their hypermasculinity well (and I can), you can get away with a lot of stuff on the feminine side too. Men don’t think that feminine behavior cancels out masculine behavior. They just want to see that macho stuff. As soon as they see that, you are part of their special Club or in crowd and they will always accept you, even on some weird, grudging level.

To be a member of the Masculine Men’s Club, you have to be:

+masculine

Acceptable:

+feminine

– feminine

As long as you are +masculine, it doesn’t really matter if you are +feminine or -feminine. You’re allowed to have feminine stuff as long as that masculine side is solid and observable.

To disallow membership in the club, you have to be:

-masculine

It really helps if you are obviously heterosexual too. Men don’t really care about male feminine behavior as long as the guy is straight and especially if he’s really good at getting women, especially hot women. If a guy can regularly screw hot women, they pretty much accept him fully just for that right there, and they could care less about how he acts because to masculine men, how you act is not that important. That’s sort of one of the tests – the pussy test. Men are very pragmatic.

Hypermasculine men are not as stupid as you think. Actually, they are extremely smart, especially about this masculinity – femininity – heterosexuality, etc. thing. Generally speaking, if it’s pretty obvious you like pussy and even better yet you can fuck hot women, they will just blow off everything else and just assume you are straight.

This type of man is very willing to compromise, and he wants you to be in his secret club. His bias is to see you as one of the members of his club. He’s not going to be biased towards seeing you as not cutting it. Men will give you a lot of breaks and give up a lot of ground just to see you are a member of their club. They would much rather have you as a member of the Masculine Men Club than not a member. They don’t like guys who are not club members, and they would much rather you join up with them than be one of those idiots who are outside of the club. They will literally search around for reasons to see how they can weasel you into the club. I think most of these men would be perfectly happy if 99% of the men in their world were Masculine Men’s Club members. They would like as few men as possible to not be in the Club.

If they are not sure about you, if they even see you reading a Playboy, for instance, they will walk up to you with a big smile and shake your hand and maybe give you a high five. Because that means you’re straight. They wanted you to be straight, but they were not sure that you were. Once they find out that you are, Yeehaw! You are one of the boys.

It’s a big myth that hypermasculine men are always going around trying to exclude other men from the Man’s Club on some flimsy grounds.

Some men do this of course, but they are typically very insecure. These are the ones who run around gay-baiting straight men, accusing straight men of being gay and even gay-bashing straight men. You would be amazed how many straight men get gay-bashed. No one ever talks about this, but it happens a lot.

I think that the whole reason behind the homophobes’ behavior is “policing masculinity.” These men are very insecure for some reason because the more secure men, as mentioned above, are always looking to give you a break and see some evidence that you are part of their Club. These other guys are running around trying to throw men out of the Club for not meeting some exacting expectations.

Homophobes are weird. One of the worst and most violent homophobes I have ever met – this guy literally beat up straight guys accusing them of being gay – some almost to the point of unconsciousness – was known to collect gay pornography. I know this because his roommate told me that he found gay porn in the gay-basher’s room.

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Game/PUA: “Magic” as the X-Factor in Game

Having a killer instinct essentially means being “a force of nature.”

It is more common in men but can be seen in women as well. It is also more desired in men.

Being a force of nature can override feminine traits in how women view you, I suppose.

Oh yeah, I definitely have that, that’s for sure, lol. I have this thing that I call “Magic.” I can turn it on, and I suppose I can turn it off. But turning it on is quite difficult. Mostly it just requires a lot of work. I have to work quite hard to work myself into this state. I have to psych myself up for it, and it is not an easy state to get into. You really have to work at it to get into it, as it does not come naturally. Then you have to work pretty hard to stay in it and keep the Magic going. Also you have to control your thoughts and feelings very well the whole time you are in it. In a way what it is all about is severe control of thoughts and feelings. It’s not a natural state at all. It is utterly contrived and completely calculated. Everything you do in that state is extremely calculated. There’s no room for spontaneity when you have the Magic on.

I definitely attract way more women (and even girls still!) when I turn on the Magic than when I do not. At my age, with the Magic off I do not get much response from females most of the time.

But with the Magic on, I do a lot better. And I get a lot of those blank, robot, zombie, hypnotized stares from women. A lot of overtly flirtatious behavior.

I also get a lot of “bedroom eyes.” The bedroom eyes are related to the hypnotized stare, and they often go together.

What are bedroom eyes? Look straight ahead at an object. Now lower your head. Now raise your eyes up to the object you were looking at. In bedroom eyes, the head is lowered, but the eyes are looking upwards up at the top of the eyelid near the eyebrow. These are also called “hooded eyes.”

Bedroom eyes and hooded eyes means she wants to fuck. You’re making her horny. If you see them outside of bed or with someone you do not know well, it is very good. When you are involved in sexual situations with women, you can see them too, often right before she is getting ready to fuck. Like she looks at you, gives you the zombie stare, and then goes into the hooded eyes as she is stripping off her clothes.  It means, “You are making me horny and I want to fuck you,” or “You are making me horny and I am going to fuck you.”

It doesn’t mean she is really going to do it. I got that severely from a 16 year old girl recently on two separate occasions on the same day. At age 58! What!? I doubt if she really wanted to do it, and I certainly hope I could have controlled myself. Just because you make a woman go into “I want to fuck you” mode doesn’t mean she is really going to do it. Maybe she is married. Maybe she has a boyfriend. Think about it. Your average woman might get turned on by, how many? 10,000 different men in a lifetime? 100,000 men? So you think your average woman fucks 10,000-100,000 men in a lifetime? Come on.

Bedroom eyes are great though, just like zombie stares. If you ever get either of those, you really need to recognize what they are and consider doing something about it. Don’t be a mouse.

That killer instinct or force of nature thing is great for getting laid. I have been thinking a lot about the “X factor” in Game. I call it “Magic.” It’s not really quantifiable or even qualifiable. It’s just a vibe – the vibe or vibes you give off. And there’s a ton of psychology that goes into it.

Also has to with energy, sending out energy into the environment where it can be received by others, in the sense of that energy being an actually existing thing that is qualifiable if not quantifiable. Actually existing as in you can almost feel it in your bones. Studies that suggest that this tactile energy exists including studies about “the eyes in the back of your head.” Studies have shown that people can actually tell when someone is looking at them even if the person is in back of them or cannot be seen at all. For instance, in some studies, the people were being watched via a grill in a department store. There was no way to see the person inside of that grill. Yet nevertheless, the studies showed that shoppers acted a lot different when there was someone in that grill looking at them than when there wasn’t.

There have also been many reports of people who go on vacation, and then on the day they are coming home, the pet seems to be aware of it and even goes outside to wait for them. And many anecdotal reports of pets going to wait by the phone even 5-30 minutes before their master rings it.

All very strange, but this all operates off of psi forces, the same involved in telepathy, clairvoyance, ghosts, demons, near death experiences, etc., all five of which I am certain exist.

In other words, the Magic X-factor in Game is psychological and may even involve psi forces. For sure it involves “energy” as in the kind that science says doesn’t even exist.

 

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Are the Gays Pushing Their Luck?

It’s already been reported hundreds of times as gay male pornography, but Youtube won’t take it down. This crap should never be on Youtube in the first place. Put it on Adults Only X rated sites. That’s the only place this crap belongs.

A lot of the comments are saying that the gays are going too far, pushing their luck, trying to get us to hate them, etc. To say the comments are anti-gay male would be an understatement.

There’s a lot of pretty crazy sexual stuff portrayed in the video. Gay Identity Politics always lies and says that says other than the PIV sex, gays and straights are the same. I guess gay men and straight men are the same. But we are not. If you bring up all the crazy, perverted crap they do, they say, “Well straight people do it too. Straight men do all those things.”

I am sure we do, but not nearly as much. And the number of straight men who like getting fisted must be extremely low or getting pegged with a strap-on period. Most straight men do not like to get fucked in the ass with long, penis shaped objects, even if your girlfriends is the one who put it on.

As far as the other stuff, I believe 37% of gay men practice S/M, B/D and they get pretty hardcore about it too. Most straight men are not into hardcore B/D, S/M. It’s a fringe subculture. If you live or work around the gay subculture in any major city, you hear about “accidents” involving gay men in S/M, B/D sex are very common. It’s not unusual at for deaths to occur in this activity, probably because they are so hardcore about it. Gay men present to emergency rooms all the time from injuries received in this kind of sex. You also see cases of gay men presenting with some object stuck up their ass that cannot be retrieved, and these cases are more common than you would think.

You also read a lot of stories about police finding some gay men tied up in room somewhere, screaming for help. Or a gay man found bound and gagged in some alleyway, unconscious, with a dildo shoved up his ass. Nope, he didn’t get victimized by criminals at all! His circumstances were a result of consensual gay sex gone out of control. The police are often dumbfounded in these cases and are often not sure if some bound, gagged and beaten gay man was victimized by a criminal or if he was just having some fun.

In fact, sexual sadism is so common in the gay male community that some suggest that is the reason why gay men are vastly overrepresented among serial killers. A gay man is vastly more likely to be a serial killer than a straight man. On the other hand, serial killers are extremely rare, so the odds that any given gay man is one must be extremely small. But this goes to show you what might happen if S/M, B/D ever catches on big-time in the straight community. We might end up with a lot more serial killers. I don’t think I’ve ever had a straight male friend who was into sexual sadism heavily.

I had a fag hag girlfriend in Hollywood once. Her idea of a good time on a Friday night was going to a gay bar and hanging out with her gay male friends. Most of her friends were hardcore gay male masochists. Once she told me about her masochistic gay male friend, “He’s not satisfied until the welts are this big.” She held her hands up with eyes bugged out of her skull. I think I said, “That guy is a sick fucking perverted asshole. Why the Hell do you associate with him?” I am not sure I would say that now, but that was in 1983. I’ve never known one straight man who liked to get beat up like that or who even practiced serious sexual masochism period.

Fully 37% of gay men engage in fisting in the past year. The % for straight men must be vanishingly low. This is actually quite a risky sexual activity, and my understanding is that you can really injure or damage your anus by doing this stuff. Also, it’s a dirty little secret, but a lot of the Hepatitis C epidemic is coming directly from this activity, often done at an orgy or group sex scene. There’s a reason for that, but I will not go into it now. Gay men keep insisting that if done properly, this activity is perfectly safe, but that can’t be true.

Sure some gay men fuck women in the ass, but it’s not a common sex act. I’ve only had a few girlfriends who even engaged in this sex act, and I’ve barely done it myself. I don’t think most straight guys are fucking women in the ass all the time. It’s just not happening.

Anilingous or rimming is when a gay man licks another gay man’s anus either on the outside or with the tongue, inside the anus. 62% of gay men engaged in rimming in the past year. This is almost a standard activity in gay porn, and it seems like this sex act is a regular part of many gay men’s sex lives. And from the few peaks I have had at gay porn, they really go at it, plunging their faces in like they haven’t eaten in days. You are supposed to wash up before you do this sort of thing, but gay men either don’t wash up or they don’t do it well enough.

Another dirty little secret that no one talks about is that this sexual act alone is responsibility for a number of diseases in the gay male community. Hepatitis A is spread only this way, and Hep A outbreaks are recorded in gay communities on a regular basis. In addition, the parasites, shigella, giardia, and ameoba are spread this way, causing shigellosis, giardia, and ameobiasis. The last one if amoebic dysentery, a disease endemic to 3rd world countries with terrible sanitation. As many as 20% of gay men test positive for at least one of those bugs at any time, and outbreaks of shigellosis, giardiasis and amoebiasis are quite common in gay communities.

Straight people definitely engage in this activity too, but a lot of of straight women refuse to do it and few volunteer from my experience. It doesn’t seem to be #1 on your average straight woman’s favorite sex act list. Still you do see this in straight porn. The odd thing is that any given group of 50-100 usually tests 0% of the presence of those parasites which are endemic among gay men. There have been several cases recorded in straights. The fact that straights seem to get away with rimming is probably because these pathogens are probably at very low levels in straight society. With gay men, on the other hand, what we call the disease reservoir is seriously infected with these bugs at a near epidemic level. The concept of disease reservoirs is very important in contagious disease but little discussed.

Water sports. Yes there are straight men and women women like to piss on people or get pissed on. It doesn’t seem to be very common. Ask one of your girlfriends if she would like to be on the receiving end of this act, and most women act like they are going to punch you in the face. Once again, doubtful that this is a top 3 sexual activity with straight women. Fully 16% of gay men engaged in water sports in the past year. I doubt if the figure is 2% for straight men.

Coprophilia. That means getting shit on or even better yet, coprophagia, which means getting shit on and eating the shit. You wonder why any human would do such a thing but it actually goes on a fair amount. Fully 8% of gay men engaged in coprophiliac activities in the past year. I doubt if the figure for straight men is 1%.

So you see, gay men are far more perverted than straight men and this is reflected in emergency room admissions, police calls for sexual activity, deaths and injuries during sex, injuries to the anus, not to mention several sexually-transmitted viruses and parasites which nearly absent in straight men.

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Alt Left Positions on Gays, Transsexuals, Non-Whites and the Disabled

Jason Y: The part about dumping gays and trannies might gain some sympathy, but action against non-Whites and the disabled makes the Alt-Left seem too hateful.

We are not dumping gays and trannies, we are just with to lessen the celebratory rhetoric about these people that ends up treating the abnormal as normal and the normal people as freaks. Face it, it’s not normal to be a transsexual and fully homosexual. It’s abnormal. So is being left-handed or having green eyes, but if everyone was left-handed or had green eyes, we could deal pretty well. If even 20% of society was gay or tranny, the consequences to society would be catastrophic. Since gays are only 3% and trannies are maybe .15% of the population, it’s no great shakes to deal with them, but even with those low numbers, transsexuals and homosexuals still cause a lot of societal problems, so these are not exactly positive things society-wise.

On the other hand, I think the Alt Left in general wants full rights for gays. That is, we support most if not all of the political causes that the gay community is pushing right now. I personally participate in gay political campaigns, which is why it’s a bit rich that I keep getting called homophobic.

We support basic minimal rights for transsexuals. I am not sure about the transsexual bathroom issue. I doubt if it will be much of a problem if we implement this, but it’s not a very important issue either. Perhaps the Alt Left will go neutral on the transsexual bathroom issue.

I believe an employer ought to be able to discriminate against gays or transsexuals if the person looks noticeably odd like a lot of transsexuals do or if their homosexual behavior is blatant and flaunted. For jobs involving meeting the public, an employer ought to be able to say, “Hey, this person’s going to scare customers away.” In that case, the flagrant gay or transsexual still ought to be able to get a job say in the back room somewhere where they are not serving as a front to the business with the public.

I think transsexuals are generally mentally ill, but mentally ill people generally deserve full rights, and their mental disorder is not dangerous to others.

What sort of action does the Alt Left advocate with regard to non-Whites other than reducing legal immigration, stopping illegal immigration, ending birthright citizenship and restricting the abuse of work visas such as H-1B’s?

The Alt Left opposes all discrimination based on race, ethnicity, etc.

Furthermore, we believe that the Voting Rights Act needs to be put back in, strong efforts to curb Republican efforts to keep Blacks from voting (similar to Jim Crow).

We would like to see the Housing Rights Act much better enforced. As it is, there is still a lot of housing discrimination against Blacks because there is little enforcement of this act. Black people need to be protected against all forms of discrimination, not just employment but also in voting and housing.

On the other hand, the Alt Left opposes Black Lives Matter. Rather than evil, I simply see BLM as idiotic, absurd, unnecessary and counterproductive.

And how is it that the Alt Left is advocating any harm for the disabled at all? In fact, we very much support the state’s disability programs and would even like to see them expanded and liberalized, believe it or not. For instance, in the UK, people on the equivalent of SSI can make as much money as they want. They usually do not make much due to their problems, but still.

And SSDI will let you work quite a bit. I knew a guy who worked 28 hours a week on SSDI. He said they just deducted his check. And if you are making good enough money on Disability, just cut the check to zero dollars and let them keep the medical care. If they become ill again and have to cut back or stop work, bring back the check in some form, but don’t throw them off the program. If they are disabled, they are going to have some serious health care needs for as long as they are disabled, so it is important for them to keep health coverage.

What’s so bad about that?

Jason Y: Anyhow, note, if there are certain bozos drifting off toward Trump from the left, then good riddance !!! Who needs them anyhow? I mean, they know who Trump is and what he represents. It’s not like they were lied to.

I disagree. We should take any people leaving Trump or heading his way that we can. If they renounce support for Trump and the Republicans, they can join our movement. Better to have them with us on the Left than over there on the Right causing chaos.

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Yes, “Soft” Bad Boys Exist in the US

Jose: Here this kind of androgyne or quasi androgyne “bad boys” maybe exist in some little circles, like between goths or something like these. Because there is no place for them being seen as “bad boys” if are quite feminine. Real “bad boys” will kick their asses. A punk, skater, hip hopper, etc., can be accepted as bad boys (according to their behavior obviously). But not effeminate men. They will be mocked, and common “quiet” men will not take them as “bad”.

If a quite effeminate men have wild behavior, at some point, they moment will have to change their feminine side or hide it because he will have problems every day if he deals with “bad boys”. He will be mocked and attacked.

For being a thug you have to act like if you were in jail or something like this. Dress is not so important, as long as you don’t dress effeminate (this can carry many problems).

In other Latin American countries probably this goes much deeper. Something dressed like Marylin Manson or David Bowie pretending being bad (even if is bad) can’t walk quiet in the street with that attitude. It have to “accept” the mocking and be taken as a “faggot”. I think in Paraguay or even little cities of my region of Argentina if someone is like this, people will not be quiet even in a normal neighborhood. Normal people will mock someone like this, not only “bad boys”. Not to mention in working-class places or some towns that are quasi-rural and people that live there are entirely from working-class and lower-class.

In big cities it’s different because people are accustomed to see “rare” persons like that.

Effeminate and feminine are not the same thing. Effeminate means acting like a woman. Here in the US, mostly only homosexual men act truly effeminate. This is the sort of “faggoty” behavior seen in ~75% of gay men. But effeminate straight men are quite rare. I would be surprised in 1% of straight men are effeminate.

These guys were not really feminine at all, but they do have a soft side. The guys I knew were pretty bad. They were juvenile delinquents, drug dealers, surfers and they stole things like ten speeds and marijuana plants. They were almost like gang or street kids. But they were masculine enough that no one would ever want to fight them. It’s just that you could see a feminine side going in a lot of them. In the US we have quite a few men who have a very strong masculine side and then they have a pretty strong feminine side going too. As long as they have that good strong masculine side going, no will fight them or even mess with them. I knew some guys like this who were criminals! One guy was a huge drug dealer in San Fransisco. He kept his cocaine in one house, lived in another house, and I forget what the 3rd house was for.

You are confusing effeminate and feminine. Effeminate means acting like a woman. Feminine is just a soft sort of guy. But a lot of White men have hard and soft going at the same time because you can do that in our culture. As long as people can see that masculine side, no one cares about the soft stuff. It sort of becomes invisible. Plus if you have a strong enough masculine side going, most men just leave you alone, don’t challenge you, don’t mock you or make fun of you, and don’t start fights with you.

I live in what is almost a ghetto. It’s a barrio. But no one ever starts one single thing with me here. No one bugs me, starts fights with me, or even insults me. But I have a strong masculine side, and I get into it in this hood, and a lot of people have told me I look scary. One advantage to looking scary is that most people pretty much leave you alone and don’t fuck with you.

This why I doubt Trash’s comments that a White man will get his ass kicked or robbed for sure in this type of neighborhood.

But in US White society, you do not have to be macho or hypermasculine like in Latin American society. Here in the US a soft man can be a bad boy or even a criminal. For instance, I get called bad boy quite a bit. People see me in a store or something, and they start laughing and say, “Hey there, bad boy!” Or I will be talking to a woman and I give her one of my million dollar smiles and she starts laughing and says, “Ohhhh, you’re a bad boy!” And I am a pretty damn soft guy. But somehow I give off a bad boy vibe somehow.

Here in US White society, a bad boy is any sort of rebel who looks like he doesn’t play by the rules and has a sort of devilish air about him. Macho or hypermasculine behavior is not necessary anymore.

I used to wear men’s kimonos! I wore these things called short kimonos. It is actually Japanese men’s wear. You wear it over a shirt and pants. A lot of guys did hate it when I wore that. I would see guys who looked like they wanted to beat me up when they saw me wear that. But nothing ever happened. Plus women loved it when I wore that kimono. They went nuts over that thing, while the guys acted like I was wearing a dress and they wanted to beat me up.

But at that time, I was also a punk rocker with a permanent scowl who wore lots of leather and spikes. A lot of people acted like they were afraid of me, and usually nobody started anything.

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